Oh So Beautiful!

Taste the soup! ~~

2009-10-12T14:09:00.002+08:00

Hi! Welcome back to my little web presence! :-) Life's beautiful, depending how you view it. And here's an inspiring story to share - about living in the present.

I'm learning to live in the moment, starting from NOW!

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When we were babies no one had to teach us how to live in the moment.
There were toes to discover and sunbeams to play with. Only the present moment existed.

Then we grew up and many of us forgot how to stay fully present. We started remembering the past and rehearsing the future. Then if we were lucky, someone or some thing reminded us that life can only be lived in the here and now.

For some of us, it was something we read in a book or heard in a workshop or a church. For me, the "aha" moment happened while I was having lunch with my good friend, Walt Busby.

It was the seventies and I was Director of the Blood Supply at the new blood bank which I had helped organize in Gainesville, Florida. It was having growing pains and I was complaining to Walter about the boss, the stress, and being on call for emergencies. Then I launched into what was happening with my new boyfriend, my mother, my children.

We had both ordered cucumber soup, a first for me, and I barely noticed that Walter wasn't eating his. I was too busy going on and on about me, me, me. I was devouring the soup and talking non-stop between gulps.

I started to share my upcoming vacation plans when Walter gently interrupted me to say,

"I get so lonely when I take you to lunch."

I was stunned.

"What do you mean," I said, "I'm right here."

"No you're not. You're at the blood bank. You're with your boyfriend, your mother, and your kids. You're on your vacation. You're everywhere but here with me sharing this moment."

I felt like crying for some reason. I didn't know why. I told Walter I didn't know what that meant, "to be in the moment."

I was always remembering and reporting things that happened already or wondering about, rehearsing, and planning for the future. Nothing much seemed to happen in the moment. I will never forget his answer that changed my life.

"How's your soup?"

"My soup?"

Why was he asking me about my soup in the middle of our conversation?
I thought for a second, and then answered truthfully, "I don't know."

"Taste it," he said.

I did, and almost gagged. It tasted awful!

"Yuk, that's the worst-tasting soup I've ever had. I can't eat that."

"I know," he smiled. "It's terrible. That's why I didn't eat mine. I watched you mindlessly eating a whole bowl of soup while you were so busy being somewhere else. I couldn't believe you actually liked the soup. You weren't paying any attention to it. That's what being here now is about.
Taste the soup.”

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Patti Normandy Greenwood is the webmaster of Mystic Planet.
She may be reached at: mystic@mysticplanet.com

Men dancing in tutus!

2009-05-25T14:09:00.002+08:00

It's a rare thing for a whole troup of ballet company to come perform in Malaysia, more so when it's an all-men company!

It was two wks ago that I went for the Men in Tutus performance in KL Performing Arts Centre.
For those who don't know, tutus mean by round outskirt that ballerinas wear classically. :)

I had so much fun and got myself a jaw fatigue syndrome after laughing too much during the show! And also painful hands after clapping too much!

Gosh, seeing all those muscular arms dancing graceful ballet is one hilarious scene, and not to mention the ketiak bulu that serves as an icing on the cake. hahaha. My favourite is the dying swan part - which is performed by the company director himself.

I like how they made fun of the little things that hardworking ballet dancers spend so much time perfecting their skills! And the dancer who squeeze his buttocks while going back backstage.

And during the first scene, there was this dancer who dances so gracefully until I can't help but keep on asking ' really is guy a?!'. Then, after seeing their real photos (guy) in the booklet that Koksoon bought, I'm convinced. Makeup can really turn the gender around so much! Wow.

Ok ok, as much as I wish to pen down and share with you the funni-ness of the show, I think these youtube clips will serve the purpose better. hihi

enjoy! ;-)

ps: after the show, few dancers came out - and wow - the dying swan de fake eye lashes was like so outstandingly looooooong! hahaha. Managed to take some photos with them - they are so friendly and hugging us when taking photos - haha!

Still waiting for my photos cocky lee!

pps: thanks also to mr juliet who got the tickets for us and brought me to the most delicious cha siew that I've ever eaten in my life! :p

More food! ~~

2009-05-12T20:09:00.009+08:00

最近，欠债累累。。。是blog债。哈哈！

觉得拍了堆积在相机里也太多了吧，还是快快还掉这些债！！

This time, food from my own house. :p

一时兴起很怀念在second year时被roommate影响变得很喜欢吃伊面。
脆脆又爽口又容易煮！
不过这个不太像我喜欢的伊面，这个比较象煲仔面，差了一点。~~

~ 我的 green tea cake. ~
很入乡随俗地泡了一壶绿茶，一面吃，一面喝。
ps: 这个食谱有点失败，还在寻找the perfect green tea cake recipe.

哈哈！搞笑图片一张！
我姐的chocolate chiffon cake. 好像火山爆发的样子！
切开来更搞笑，中间是空的，好像forest里的一条lane.
不过口感实在一级棒！~
以我这个不大吃chocolate的人也连吃了4片有。。。
奇怪，这次吃了又不会打喷嚏，可这是用上顶的cookingchocolate做的。。
难道我的chocolate allergy 好了？
瓦瓦瓦！！！

牛奶布丁~
sweet sweet caramel pudding
晚上做，所以光线暗。
有拍下制作过程，有吗有人要看吗？没有我也照放。hihi...later! :p
超容易做的，成品又美又好吃！

呵呵。。。这是时间多过龙（apa?)的杰作。。
把煮过的东西在放汤煮过一次，把它变身成鸡肉冻粉汤。
哈哈！

流口水了吧？我也是！哈哈！
也是在second year 时认识的板面，最近又买了回来煮来回味吃。：p
淋上咖喱鸡和马铃薯，配上可爱的cherry tomatoes 还有过热水烫过的brocolli，就很赏心悦目了！
喜欢！但最佳配角还没出现。。。deng deng deng deng --->>

呼之欲出的蛋黄！~
想象一下一叉刺破它时蛋黄浓汁流出来的样子。。
拿来捞面有润滑面的效用，增加汁感！

其实是无心之作。。
本要做半生熟蛋，但打出来时才1/4熟，所以把它小心翼翼的溜了蛋进去frying pan再煮多一下下，蛋白熟了，蛋黄就七分熟。

Yay!! 好成功！:p

简易Apple Pie! ~
Delicious! :)))
要谢谢百用的puff pastry, 之前都不懂原来这样容易的！
把青苹果切丁，放水在frying pan煮，加糖及cinnamon,
煮到apple有点软时，加 corn flour 给他thicken 就搞掂了!
下次可试试放sardine! :p

~~ to be continued　～～　

Bali Living like a Queen 之食物篇

2009-04-30T13:57:00.007+08:00

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万事以吃为先，那就从吃讲起。。。从前很久很久以前。。。哇哈哈！好无聊！晕掉。。我在家实在闲空到焖烧了。不用紧，下星期我有节目了！哈哈！

ok ok 讲回吃。。。

之前姐姐讲我的blog乱乱写！哈哈！这个叫随兴所欲。不过我要好好写这一篇，因为下次可以让别人做参考。

ok ok, 再一次讲回吃。哈哈哈哈哈哈。。

OldTownKopitiam at LCCT: white coffee + toast with butter (my favourite but got gobbled up by us before we managed to take a photo of it!)

It was the first day of opening there so things are like a bit kelam kabut there - the table next to us who arrived like 20 minutes later than us got their meal already while we're still waiting for our eye opener (coffeee!) Luckily we got things to keep us occupied - like me last minute practising my SLR　ｓｋｉｌｌ，ｇｏｉｎｇ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ　ｏｕｒ　ｔｒａｖｅｌ　ｎｏｔｅｓ，ａｎｄ　ｐｌａｙｉｎｇ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｍｙ　ｎｅｗ　ｈａｎｄｐｈｏｎｅ　－ｒｅｄ　ｈｏｔ　ｃｏｌｏｒ　ｄｅ．　：ｐ　Ｔｈｅ　ｆｏｏｄ　ｔｈｅｒｅ　ａｒｅ　ｅｘｐｅｎｓｉｖｅ　ｂｙ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ｒｍ２　ｅａｃｈ　ｉｔｅｍ．　

Ｔｏｏ　ｂｏｒｅｄ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｐｌａｎｅ　－ｂｏｕｇｈｔ　ｓｏｍｅ　ｆｏｏｄ　ｔｏ　ｋｅｅｐ　ｕｓ　ｏｃｃｕｐｉｅｄ．　Ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｓｕｒｐｒｉｓｅ　－ｔｈｅ　ｆｒｉｅｄ　ｒｉｃｅ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｓａｔａｙ　ａｃｔｕａｌｌｙ　ｔａｓｔｅｄ　ｎｏｔ　ｂａｄ　－Ｉ actually liked it! But I　ｇｕｅｓｓ　ｅｖｅｒｙｔｈｉｎｇ　ｗｉｔｈ　ａ　ｈｏｌｉｄａｙ　ｍｏｏｄ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｎｉｃｅ！　

Ｏｕｒ　ｆｉｒｓｔ　ｍｅａｌ　ｉｎ　Ｂａｌｉ！！！　

Ａｔ　ａ　ｒｅｓｔａｕｒａｎｔ　ｃａｌｌｅｄ　＇Ｂａｍｂｏｏ　Ｒｅｓｔａｕｒａｎｔ＇，　ｊｕｓｔ　１００　ｓｔｅｐｓ　ａｗａｙ　ｆｒｏｍ　ｏｕｒ　ｓｔａｙｉｎｇ　ｐｌａｃｅ　ｃａｌｌｅｄ　Ｆａｔ　Ｙｏｇｉ　（ｎｏｔ　ｅｘａｃｔｌｙ　ｆａｎｔａｓｔｉｃ，　ｂｕｔ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｌａｔｅｒ）　ｉｎ　Ｋｕｔａ．　Ｔｈｅ　ｆｉｒｓｔ　ｔｈｉｎｇ　ｗｅ　ｎｏｔｉｃｅｄ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｍｅｎｕ　ｗａｓ　＇Ａｖｏｃａｄｏ　ｊｕｉｃｅ＇！　Ｗｅ　ｈａｖｅ　ｎｅｖｅｒ　ｔｒｉｅｄ　ｉｔ　ｉｎ　Ｍ＇ｓｉａ　ｂｅｆｏｒｅ　ｓｏ　ｗｅ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔ　ｉｔ＇ｓ　ｓｏｍｅｔｈｉｎｇ　ｎｅｗ　ａｎｄ　ｆｒｅｓｈ　ａｎｄ　ｓｔｒａｉｇｈｔ　ａｗａｙ　ｏｒｄｅｒｅｄ　ｉｔ　ｗｉｔｈｏｕｔ　ｔｈｉｎｋｉｎｇ　ｔｗｉｃｅ．　Ｉｔ　ｔｕｒｎｅｄ　ｏｕｔ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ａ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｐｅｋａｔ　ｄｒｉｎｋ，　ａ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｃｒｅａｍｙ　ｋｉｎｄ　ｏｆ　ｔｅｘｔｕｒｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｍａｋｅｓ　ｙｏｕ　ｆｉｌｌ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｙｏｕ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｅｎｅｒｇｙ　ｏｆ　ｂｌｏｗｉｎｇ　ａ　ｂａｌｌｏｏｎ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ａｂｌｅ　ｔｏ　ｓｕｃｋ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｊｕｉｃｅ．　Ａｎｄ　ｉｔ＇ｓ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｆｕｌｌｉｎｇ　ｉｎｄｅｅｄ！　Ｌｉｋｅ　ｅａｔｉｎｇ　ｊｕｉｃｅ．　Ｈａｈａ．　（ｈｍｍ．．ｅａｔｉｎｇ　ｊｕｉｃｅ．．．ｈａｈａ！）　Ｉ　ｓｕｐｐｏｓｅ　ｔｈｅ　ａｖｏｃａｄｏ　ｊｕｉｃｅ　ｉｔｓｅｌｆ　ｈａｓ　ｎｏ　ｄｉｓｔｉｎｃｔ　ｆｌａｖｏｒ，　ｓｏ　ｔｈｅｙ　ａｄｄｅｄ　ｉｎ　ｃｏｃｋｌａｔ　ｃｒｅａｍ　ｉｎｓｉｄｅ　ｔｏ　ｇｉｖｅ　ｆｌａｖｏｒ？　Ｉ＇ｍ　ｎｏｔ　ｓｕｒｅ，　ｂｕｔ　Ｉ think this combination is ok to me. Not a big fan of chocolate, infact an enermy of mine, but then a little bit won't hurt. hehe :p Thumbs up for this drink - must try in Bali - infact I'm so sure that you will surely come across this if you're there. It turned out that our first avocado juice in bamboo restaurant is the cheapest - 60k rupiah (rm2).

Still in bamboo restaurant, this is Kalazan fried chicken. 皮炸到很脆，不过肉有点干。还好。
Pork satay. Yummy! I like the sauce. Must try in Bamboo. Our first dinner in Kuta - the famous Jimbaran Beachside dinner.The atmosphere is something you've to experience it yourself. Think - candlelight dinner facing the endless dark beach with water splashing sounds and breezy wind. Well, didn't feel anything right..told you have to experience it yourself! :p

We ordered a red snapper fish - forgot the weight, but comes with rice, vege, drink, fruits and some appertizers. Total bill is about rm30+ each. Okla..half heartedly enjoyed the dinner, coz 1. very dark, cannot see well, so less one sensing organ to enjoy (hahahahhaha) and 2, got those bands coming to you selling their voices to you. Iｗａｓ　ｐｒａｙｉｎｇ　ｓｏ　ｈａｒｄ　ｓｏ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｄｕｎ　ｃｏｍｅ，　ｃｏｚ　Ｉ don't want outsider intruding my dinner. hahah! (finally they din come to our table - yeah!)

our dinner: --->

The place where they cook and prepare. After I　ｔａｋｅｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｐｈｏｔｏ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｗｅｒｅ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｈａｐｐｙ　ａｎｄ　ｓａｉｄ　＇Ｔｈａｎｋ　ｙｏｕ！＇　ｈａｈａｈａｈ．　
Ｅｖｅｒｙｏｎｅ　ｗｈｏ　ｇｏｅｓ　ｉｎｔｏ　ｔｈｅ　ｒｅｓｔａｕｒａｎｔ　ｇｅｔｓ　ａ　ｆｌｏｗｅｒ　－ｆｒｅｓｈ　ｏｎｅ！　Ｌｉｋｅ！　：ｐ　Ｔｈｅ　ｎｅｘｔ　ｄａｙ，　ｗｅ　ｗｅｎｔ　ｔｏ　Ｋｉｎｔａｍａｎｉ　ｖｏｌｃａｎｏ　－ｉｔ＇ｓ　ａｔ　ａ　ｈｉｇｈｅｒ　ａｌｔｉｔｕｄｅ　ｓｏ　ｔｈｅ　ｗｅａｔｈｅｒ　ｔｕｒｎｓ　ｃｏｏｌｅｒ　ａｓ　ｗｅ　ｃｌｉｍｂ　（ｅｒｍｍ．．ｕｓｉｎｇ　ｃａｒ．．ｈａｈａ）．　Ｔｈｅ　ｖｉｅｗ　ｉｓ　ｍａｇｎｉｆｉｃｉｅｎｔ！　Ｗｅ　ｗｅｒｅ　ｌｕｃｋｙ　ｔｏ　ｒｅａｃｈ　ａｔ　ａｎ　ｏｆｆ－ｐｅａｋ　ｈｏｕｒ，　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ａｂｌｅ　ｔｏ　ｇｅｔ　ａｎ　ｏｕｔｄｏｏｒ　ｐｌａｃｅ　－ｓｏ　ｔｈａｔ　ｗｅ　ｃｏｕｌｄ　ｌｕｎｃｈ　ｆａｃｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅ　ｖｏｌｃａｎｏ！　

Ｔｈｅ　ｖｉｅｗ　ｉｓ　ｓｏ　ｎｉｃｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｂｅｆｏｒｅ　ｍｅａｌ，　ｗｅ　ｔａｋｅ　ｐｈｏｔｏｓ　ｔａｋｅ　ｐｈｏｔｏｓ　ｔａｋｅ　ｐｈｏｔｏｓ．．Ｔｈｅｎ　ａｆｔｅｒ　ｅａｔｉｎｇ，　ｗｅ　ａｇａｉｎ　ｔａｋｅ　ｐｈｏｔｏｓ　ｔａｋｅ　ｐｈｏｔｏｓ　ｎｏｎ　ｓｔｏｐ．　ＨＡｈａｈａ．　Ｂｌｅｋ！　：ｐ　Ｆｒｏｍ　ｏｕｔｄｏｏｒ　ｔｏ　ｉｎｄｏｏｒ，　ｈａｈａ，　ｕｎｔｉｌ　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｔｈｉｓ　ａｌｓｏ　ｃｏｍｅ　ｏｕｔ．
ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｃｏｎｔｉｎｕｅｄ．．．ｎｅｅｄ　ａ　ｂｒｅａｋ　－Ｋｉｔ　Ｋａｔ！　：ｐ

In the midst again...

2009-04-28T16:12:00.003+08:00

...of finding myself. Hmm...lately has been worrying a little bit about housemanship. Been browsing left and right about it whole day, taking in other people's opinion, and learned some lessons about other people's experience. To be honest, I can't imagine myself in it - how am I going to endure the 36 hours non stop working and how am I going to be in alert condition all the time? *@^#%@^@* Whatever, it's something I HAD to do - so no choice. Just do it! (aihhhhhh............................)

The only good thing I realized that comes with all these torturing is...I'm guaranteed to lose at least 10kg!!! hahahaha! Yeah, go grab another piece of cake first. :p :p :p

ps: bali post, wait wait...have to find the mood first de.

Live like a king 之Bali trip - 前奏

2009-04-24T08:46:00.008+08:00

哈哈，前奏？懒惰的借口吧。Blek! :p Very enjoyable and happy indeed this trip to Bali. Living like a king with servants and personal drivers. hohohoho！

A peek of my everyday there...

Wake up to a wide green field of paddy, swimming in magnificient natural views every early morning (like...7am?),
breakfast sipping real pure juice at the paddyfield side,
touring around the island like a queen (king or queen? hehe) (side note: this photo taken with my SE850i hp - acceptable quality)

and lastly end the tiring journey with sensual relaxing massage followed by floral bath n tea n fruits at bath tub side. 　
Oh no no, the day doesn't end with that. haha! When the night hits, it's time to tame our stomach in a more breezy and cooling weather with a renewed soul and spirit! Yeahhhh!
我就是喜欢做spa. 怎么样？不可以啊？hehehehhe.

ps: 这里得空还可以与椰树对话。哈哈！喜欢！轻松！会在回去的！
pps: 有人偷拍我了！快逃！哈哈！PPPS: 哈哈！我还在这里！Blek! :p (真好玩，在巴厘可以随心所欲做些有的没的，自由自在，因为没有人认识我嘛，不过那边真的很多同乡也是去游玩，真是AirAsia托的福！爱死AirAsia了！要多点搞零机票ok!!!）
真的PS了：哇我的前奏也不短hor. 我很勤劳对不对？：p

要知道更多吗？跟我进来我的皇宫看看吧！哈哈！

See pictures tell story 2

2009-04-18T00:21:00.004+08:00

Driving back Ipoh! Tut tut.. (train?). Nola, is little kancil! :p Made full use of the small little kancil. Got a chair inside somemore.

And to thank the dedicated driver, here's the tantalizing food for rewards, and many other food which we forgot to take photos, due to excessive indulgence in serving our stomach's rats. :p

This is from the tong sui gai just opposite Samtet school. Loaded with fruits de ABC! Got dragon fruit somemore. First time! But we were too full by then to really enjoy the vitamins loaded dessert.

This morning attempted chawanmuchi...it didn't come out as smooth as my face skin (ahem!) hehe.. the aluminium foil's fault! It flied off at some places, that's why the steam went inside and made it like a lot of acne mark!! :p next time will be a better one.

And for afternoon tea, here's it! Pizzaaaaaaaaaaaa......cheese loaded. sinful. fattening. but delicious! :-)

And here's my supper - don't sweat first - I just weighed, is still within expandable range. haha! :p can eat more! Yeah!

Whoooo... finally paid off my blog debt. Can happily go enjoy my Bali trip! I wan massageeeeeeee and spaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! *elated mood* :-)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

See pictures tell story...

2009-04-17T23:17:00.006+08:00

A recordance of the many happenings during the past 2 weeks. Time really flies fast. Just 2 weeks ago I was announced to have passed my final exam (somemore ended up in dean's list completely out of my expectation), and followed up a celebration dinner in Hotel Amanda...

Therefore, the 'confused' and 'why is it me' expression on my face when I take this picture. But very fast, I got into the mood....

and I started to smile and even did I little bit of dancing with my feet. :p Haha. Lalalala!

Can you spot the professor in this photo? Heheh. One of the most funny and exciting experience in my clinical years. Ask me about it next time la! :p

Pretty smart girls.. :p Really miss those student days!! And right after the result was announced in the lecture hall, we headed straight to the UM 09 board to snap down our joy and happiness. :-) we were high and estatic to say the least. but at the same time feel sad for those who were not able to make it this time round.

and a mini graduation in our faculty the next day where my whole family came down to visit (ermm..and to drive back some of my stuff. hehe)

And below, are the many tasty saliva drooling food that I bought them to in KL. First is the Sushi Zanmai in The Gardens. I liked it there since eating it with my girls after an exam, so the feeling of relaxation and relief is still felt there. :p The power of association. Hmm.. something for the retailers to think about. hehe.

What I like about Sushi Zanmai is that they make good use of mayonaise in their kalten belt sushi, very special indeed! And their price is in the ok range. Shop is comfortable and cozy and warm. There's always long queue outside the shop, but very luckily the two times we went there we were able to avoid the peak eating hours, therefore can go straight inside and enjoy!! Wa I really can talk non stop about it. Show one picture first.
My favourite Unagi! This is yummy, the 'zhap' is really rich and flavourish. Thumbs up!
The next day, we went to The Curve and we were there quite early, thinking to grab a brunch. And while strolling outside the many still in coma state restaurants, we came to this seemingly high class restaurant named PHOP. Huh? hehe.. is Paddington House of Pancake la!

see, this is what I called high class. :-)

They are having a set lunch promotion, RM 13.80 ++ gets you a drink (coffee/tea), main course of many country representative (from pancakes to fish to chicken to beef and many more) and a 'dollar pancake' dessert. We were excited when we first saw this.. and while eating and enjoying the main course we were like wondering whether we have read it right that it's only that price?! Coz it's really very big size and very 'sincere'.

Ok, show picture. Here's my little sis's pancake set, with bacon and the vegetable popiah. Haha, catching her dripping the honey on the pancakes.
This is my 'dei dou lan' fish! The fish was cooked till just right, with very attractive decoration by red cherry tomatoes, the green popiah and the yellow mashed potatoes. Dear to sight. :p

And here, introducing the cute surprise (? keke) of the day! 'Dollar pancake' they call it, coz the pancake is of the size of a dollar. haha. So cute. Small little pancake. I like! :p Somemore in a sea of ice cream and strawberry jam and some peanuts. Very creative indeed, can easily imitate at home - so I registered it in my mind...
...and few days after that when I returned home...Little sis wanted to eat pancake, so I find find find then decided on a pancake recipe.. And while frying the pancake, I suddenly got an idea - DING! - I want to do like the PHOP de. hehehehe. So I was there making the pancake into different sizes by controlling the amount of batter used in each scoop..

Yeah, fun fun fun! And this is what came out! :p

I really like this photo. You can see the top most small pancake is there, standing tall, despite being like so fragile. Hmm.. :p My pancake tower. haha
And after drizzling some sweet honey, here's the more tantalizing version of my pancake tower! (PHOP, dun steal my idea! haha. who steal whose first a? dunno le.) :p

My pratha. One of the home's day's breakfast. Fat. haha.

To be continued... more photos to uplaod and more old people story to tell. haha. :p

矛盾

2009-04-05T01:53:00.002+08:00

The ordeal of waiting...Monday is the day we'll know whether we pass or not. Shit. This is such a stupid arrangement.. To enjoy or not to enjoy? To be happy or fearful? Hmm...dunno la..I think it's all the matter of adjusting your thinking. Your thinking IS the reality. And the best thing is, you've got control over what you wan to think about isn't it! You create your own reality. This is good. Great. Maybe this is designed to be so - to train us to have a tough mind. Hmm... Alright. I shall enjoy! :p

Yippee! Can't stop admiring my new hair style n new dress. Like like like! hehe. :-)))))) Lalalalalala!

Hulalalala...

2009-03-31T19:05:00.000+08:00

Yeah! One more exam down! Long case done! Hurray! Little holiday mood now. :p No no no... can't like this.. still got short case. still got a war to go! Muz continue mugging!!! Can't stop like this de!!! One more stop to go only.

Lately have been focusing on exam entirely.. no time to think about wat to do after exam tim.. so much of free time. Muz think of something worthwhile to do! Muz not just stay at home and waste time only. ok ok.. :p

Test test your personality :p

2009-03-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

有一棵耶树长的非常高，
四只动物：金刚，人猿，猩猩，猴子刚好经过，
他们比赛爬上去采香蕉，你猜谁先采到？(请回答）
看你属那种性格的人
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> 答案在下面，选完动物后再看答案。。。
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> 猩猩＝你的性格属笨
> 人猿＝你的性格属蠢
> 猴子＝你的性格属白痴
> 金刚＝你的性格属傻
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>椰子树上长香蕉的啊？兄弟姐们们吖~~~
看来你也是被工作折磨的快不行了....

I feel like singing... and dancing!

2009-03-23T12:25:00.002+08:00

Am having a sense of freedom now.. Little bit.. of in control. I don't know. :p

Hulalala! Just finished one very big CPC paper.. Okla...not very greatly done, but I suppose it's ok. Ok ok ok ok ok. :p

I need some sleep! Was tossing and turning on the bed yesterday night.. My usual pre-exam palpitation and flash backs and weird dreams. But somehow I finally slept.

Somehow things will work out. Somehow it'll be just alright. Somehow, someway, something will make you somewat YOU!

Believe in yourself. Keep going!

Life's just like this de. So what, if this happens, so what if that happens? Live life! :p No regrets. Do your best.

想念烤面包

2009-03-12T16:07:00.000+08:00

想念着家里自己做的烤面包，是妹妹在我上次回来之前教我的。把一块白面包涂上kayak，切一半，变两个三角形，kiap 在一起，然后在外面搽上牛油，然后拿去frying pan不用放油煎一下下，就好了！脆脆香香，出乎预料的好吃！喜欢！！

不喜欢这里的食物。忙了一个早上，饿死了，进我肚子的竟然是臭臭辣辣的鱼。讨厌！我要回家！！！

ps: 不用紧，等一下跟 xxx 出去吃好料! 善敏你羡慕吧！ :-p blek! Lalalalalalala...

pps: 我真的想回家啦。。。

ME ME ME! :p

2009-03-04T10:56:00.003+08:00

Study until too bored..went to facebook and simply surf surf..then came across this quiz. Did it out of curiosity. fits well.. hmm.. what you think? ;-)

Go try: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

I got straight forward ah? hmm...but yeah, I listen well. :)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Yeah right, I'm a true can't be saved romantic.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

Of course have to get to know a person really well first la - if not?!

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Flirt, yeah, but of course selectively.. :-p And to answer that question, meeting that deserving someone will make me serious la of course.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

True. I'm a conscientious person

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

I dunno about this one le...just floating around, dreaming..things are especially good and perfect in dream right...

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

Just have to look at the positive side ba.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Yeah yeah. I like the freedom of choice - to depend or not to depend.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

My heart, my heart. :-)

光良!

2009-03-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

哇！说一个人的音乐有多大影响力真的是无法想象。。刚刚吃饱饭又回到了＇监牢＇继续啃书。。。脑有点满了的感觉，可是又有点恐慌紧张。。怕考试。。想找些抒情安慰的。。就随便乱click电脑。。eh,就这样click到了光良的＇不会分离＇出来。。哇。。。好喜欢！顿时很舒服。就是有一种踏实的感觉，我喜欢有肯定的，实在的。不要是飘浮捉摸不定的。现在是考试重要压力时刻，很开心可以有安慰鼓励性的音乐陪伴。；－）

ps:上一次考final exam时也是光良的同样音乐陪伴! wa, 酱快就一年多了！我要逃离这里！！飞去远远不要考试！！!

有美吗？

2009-03-01T14:23:00.003+08:00

爸爸刚买了二手的EOS相机，所以就用来玩玩了几下。。。

有美吗有美吗？没有讲美的没得吃！！哈哈哈哈！；-p

The end of 5 years...

2009-03-01T11:42:00.002+08:00

Wow.. can't believe it...5 years of medical training just ended 2 days ago..To be honest, I didn't have any 'special' feelings until I came back Ipoh, opened up Facebook and saw everyone posting their comments and feelings about ending the 5-year medical training school.. Then only I started to wonder and look back at all the loooooong 5 years that I've spent together with my coursemates. It's a wonder, to spend such a long time, creating memories (all sorts - happy,sad,torturing,scary) with them.

First year, we were still very much getting to know each other. Thanks to the great orientation (kekeke), we got to know each other pretty fast. And later, were times spent running from room to room, calling each other for meals, going out, pasar malam, lectures and all that anatomy smelly stuff.

Then, second year, the year where we moved out to rent an apartment. Then, we had the experience of going to MidValley every wk for 'morning market' and all the 'si lai' stuff. :-)) I practically started from zero (burnt fried egg) and started venturing into the kitchen. That was the time we were able to leisurely sit infront of the tv every evening and watch HK drama and eat dinner together. So free! Oh year, not to mention the birthday celebrations for our housemates and the funny cakes that we've made. :-p

Third/Forth year, start of our clinical years in Klang. I think Klang is one of the best times in my medical school, as it's the beginning ot clinical stuff, which is new and fresh to us. Plus, we're under no high expectations by the lecturers - we're considered 'young' and therefore it's ok if we still don't know much! (what a good excuse) haha. Then then then, around the Klang hostel, just within walking distance we're able to get our stomach satisfied with Chinese food. And the timetable is pretty flexible and free, leaving us free to look for food and still got time to study. :p The best of both worlds. haha.

Fifth/final year, aih....the pressure starts coming in, as at this stage, the expectation suddenly rises when you're a final year. Not to mention the new postings - like orthopedics, psy, minor, obs on call and all that...busy, packed, end of postings every 6 wks...leaving us little time for proper food. (why is my blog/life all about food?!) Time's precious in final year but nevertheless, we managed to squeeze in some fun everyday, making jokes with our coursemates, skipping unneccesary classes. ;-p

That's the end of our 5 year medical school life. What's ahead is 3 more weeks of study week, and 2 weeks of exam... scary and torturing... but then, we came in and worked hard for 5 years so that we can finally pass and graduate, so these 3 wks ++ are just..well, passing phase. Gambateh! 3 more weeks to go! :-))

Looking forward to bali bali bali... yeah!

Celebrating L.O.V.E.! :p

2009-02-14T18:45:00.004+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day! :-)))) To me, love means encompassing acceptance and forgiveness. Love keeps no record of past wrongs. Love appreciates and love cherishes. Love wants only the best for each other. And the true love of all starts with loving oneself unconditionally, and only then can one extend her love to those around.

Love is patient and kind;
Love is not jealous or boastful;
it is not arrogant or rude.

Love does not insist on its own way;
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice at wrong,
but rejoices in the right.

Love bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.

Principles of Life!

2009-02-11T13:02:00.001+08:00

1. Love is joyful awareness. Love life--people, animals, nature, gardening, art and music, sports and exercise, literature, God--anything and anyone that brings you a joyful awareness of the wonder of being a living creature.

2. Gratitude satisfies the spirit. Be grateful for all that you love and if you cannot think of anyone or anything that love, then be grateful you still have a chance to love. Be especially grateful for the opportunity help and to serve other people and good causes.

3. Gratitude is the antidote to self-pity. Feeling sorry for oneself is ruinous. Especially don't fall into believing that we live in the worst of times. It takes little imagination to know how much worse it has been for other people in previous ages and in other places. Be grateful for this life.

4. Ethics guide the good life. Put ethics and principles above pleasure, convenience, safety, income, career, your presumed place in the world, and the way others view you. Living a principled life is the key to a satisfying life.

5. Everything good requires courage. Find the courage to love, to be grateful, and to live by sound ethics. Especially be brave enough to speak when you are afraid.

6. Dare to seek romantic love. Abiding love for a partner in life is the nearest we get to heaven this time around.

7. Make a living by doing something that you love. Many people find a way to do it. Your occupation should feel like a privilege, a pleasure, and an opportunity to serve.

8. Approach every single challenge in life with determination to master it. Otherwise you won't handle it. Feeling helpless in the face of adversity is a prescription for failure. Deciding to take on the challenges is a prescription for self-satisfaction and makes success more likely.

9. Don't hide from or stifle your painful emotions. Feeling pain signals that there is something wrong in your life that needs immediate attention. Invite your painful emotions to tell you everything they can about what you really want out of life. All psychoactive substances, from illegal drugs to psychiatric medications, suppress our real emotions and should be avoided, especially in time of suffering and fear when we especially need to know what we are feeling.

10. Reject being labeled with a psychiatric diagnosis like depression, bipolar disorder or anxiety. There are no "psychiatric disorders;" only life disorders. All of us have to struggle, to go through hard times, and to find a way of becoming more in control of our emotions and more successful in our actions.

11. Don't think of yourself as a survivor. Intending to survive guarantees little more than getting by. Think of yourself as some who intends to triumph.

12. Forgiving other people liberates us from hate. You won't get even by hating, you'll get miserable, bitter and spiritless. Take care of yourself by forgiving, and if necessary by avoiding hurtful people, but don't waste a minute hating.

13. Seek a worthwhile life rather than happiness. The search for happiness will distract you from what matters and even make you crazy. Happiness is often a matter of luck--the way we are shaped by childhood, where we happen to be born, health, and circumstance.

14. No one knows the meaning of life but it's certain that life is best lived with love, gratitude, ethics, courage, and a determination to give it your best effort. A sense of worth is guaranteed and happiness will often tag along as well.

15. Let your spirit be touched, and touch the spirit of others, with love.

Copyright by Peter R. Breggin, M.D., Thanksgiving Day 2006.
Please copy and send these intact guidelines along with the copyright notice to anyone you wish.

Dr. Breggin's latest book is Medication Madness: A Psychiatrist Exposes the Dangers of Mood-Altering Medications (2008) and his revised and updated website is Breggin.com.

Celebrating the end of CNY! ;-)

2009-02-09T19:14:00.009+08:00

Wow... discipline is definitely not enough here!!! Final exam in just 6 weeks and we're playing cards and shouting and gambling and staying up late chit chatting on top of the KL city. Hehe. But the memories are certainly worth the late night!

Cham, today I'm suffering from the aftermaths of staying up so late. So hard to climb out from the bed...and keeping staring blankly during study group in the hot hot afternoon...just wanna doze off and 'refill' my sleep debt. Haha!

Some breathtakingly nice photos to share, taken by our dedicated photographer Mr Goat. ;-)

Deng deng deng deng.... --> presenting the 9 gambling kings and queens! The 'old thousand' won all of our hard earned $$..sob sob...but luckily we ate back what's worth in his house into our stomach..hehe..so no win no lose. ;-p

快快快

2009-02-02T09:41:00.004+08:00

快快快。。。朋友车要来了！哈哈！趁还有点小时间把新年假期做个终结。其实也没什么大感想，就是很享受这段在家疯疯颠颠的日子。可以抛开书本烦恼，就是吃喝玩乐逗狗（秘密出来了！！！）哈哈！

好了，现在是时候重拾课本，呜呜。。。应付还有两个小月的 final exam.惨惨！haha.. hehehe :P 想到都苦，不过我答应自己，要以笑脸应对，把快乐放大，不开心缩小，这样不就行了吗？

对对对，就看我有多厉害讲到做到。Lalalalala :p

ps: 我喜欢的早餐！Cornflakes in cold milk. Nice nice nice. :)

The demented dog!

2009-01-21T14:45:00.004+08:00

Yay! Finally found it! Saw this very cute and hilarious cartoon during class yesterday and wanted to post it in my blog. Dr used this cartoon to illustrate to us how the demented patients will, like this dog, lost their way in familiar places.

Hahahahaa.. so funny.. you see the dog, still got a drop of tear hanging at the egde of its eye! Hahahahahah.. but I thought dogs can find their own way home one.. oh ya.. demented la.. cham... wondering whether my Ruby will one day become like this. kekekeke. Alzheimer's dog! :-P And instead of the usual 'humans post lost dog notice', this dog is pasting the 'lost human' notice everywhere... kelian de dog! hahahahhaaha..

Ok, enough of laughing! Back to studying! hehehehe. :P

Of intention and thanksgiving

2009-01-02T13:15:00.004+08:00

I like the word 'intend'. It's like wanting something but you don't set out to want it NOW or in any fixed way. You're ok with anything that comes along and it just puts you in a peaceful piece of mind. Intend intend intend. :-)

About thanks-giving. Everyday is a thanks giving day, more so on the new year. When you give thanks, you'll get more of it. So, whatever it is that you want, or *intend* to have in that matter (hehe), give thanks to whatever that you already have. And what's that for a good way to start a new year - so that you'll have more and loads of the good things in this coming year! :)

Lalalalalala! I intend to.... _____________ (fill in the blank) and I'm grateful for the ______ that I already have.

(example: I intend to have doraemon in my life and I'm grateful for the doraemon picturez that I already have. hehehhehehe)

The first day of 2009!

2009-01-01T16:55:00.003+08:00

Lalalalala... wishing everyone an exciting and wonderful year ahead! Whatever it is that we're going through now, they're just perfect for the time being. Cherish, and enjoy in the moment! Make the best out of everything you have - which is a lot I suppose! :-)

We'll all do fine.

Side note to share: yesterday I had a very magnificent view of genting highlands from the low land! Imagine a chain of lantern lights shinning and berkelip-kelip in the middle of the sky out of nowhere.. it's like a city itself hanging in the sky! And 隐隐约约 you can see 绽放的烟花 on top of the lantern. 真的很美！:-)) Should get a chance to take a view of it if there is!

Canadian pizza!

2008-12-28T18:34:00.002+08:00

Hmm... yummy! :-)) Blogging with a full stomach. :-p

I don't know how long this gem has been here in M'sia.. but this buy-1-get-1-free pizza offer is really worth it. For RM29.90 we get two regular pizza, thin or pan crust according to your liking. The pizza itself is very loaded, meaty and 'sincere'. It's not like they cheat you on the content for the cheap price. Hehe.

The phone operator seems less systematic and trained than the big fast food delivery chains out there. hehe.. the operator asked me how to get to our college - and whether it's near the bus station (huh which bus station?) etc haiyo... but finally without any fuss the delivery man managed to find his way here, on time, within 40 mins as promised. :)

Can order online too - canadianpizza.com.my but somehow my browser blocked the pop-up... so no luck! :)

lalalallalala. loving life! :)

Celebrating ME! :)

2008-12-27T21:22:00.003+08:00

Shopping spree again yesterday! hehe :p Pitty JJ, wanted to spend money but din find anything to her heart's desire.. hehe.. made me feel like I'm the big spender here. Ahemm.. nola.. I just bought that thing just becauseeeeeeeeee........

*got free gift wrapping*

:-)) I'm a girl, after all!

Which girl doesn't like gift? ;-)

Ding ding ding ding... >>>> YEAH! Got a gift for ME, I want to really thank ME for being who I am, the special and unique me, so I'm celebrating ME this holidays! There's no one else in this world that's like ME, rite?

AFTERNOTE: We were taught to just fit in, to be like everyone else, and to compete with other people for the things we want in life. But that's not how it works. You don't have to fit in, you are a unique entity, a special gift, to each and everyone that you reach out to.

Lalalala! I'm a gift... :-p hehe

我爱小叮当！

2008-12-25T22:10:00.007+08:00

还记得小时候常去＇借tape', 就是借小叮当的片来看。记得是广东话版的。。那叮当肥肥圆圆的身材还有短短的手，hehe,好可爱！很喜欢它每一次都有很creative的工具来帮大雄，不过很多时候都是弄巧反搓，笑死人！喜欢它伸手进去肚皮前的口袋然后很英雄的把工具举起来，ding ding ding ding 的样子。hahah! 还有就是小叮当的主题曲。。很开心的每一次听到这首歌！Ang ang ang! hehe :p

还有很喜欢小叮当的时光机！！！大雄很喜欢去未来看他跟静宜在一起的时候。哈哈！还有就是它的蜻蜓竹，插在头上大雄就可以不用迟到上学了。还有每一次大雄考试都是考零鸡蛋的！ hahahahaha.

Hmm...好久好久没有看了。。很怀念！

很想再一次回去借tape来看。看小叮当有没有长大了！ :p

lalalalala!

2008-12-24T18:48:00.001+08:00

要一直相信自己的梦想！！总有一天会不知不觉实现的！这是自然规律，你想象的，你脑海里的潜意识，就会是呈现在你未来及面前的东西。要对自己诚实哦，忠于自己的感受及喜好，说你想说的，做你想做的。我才不理你怎么想！！！ hehe :P

How to rescue my falling memory

2008-12-18T19:46:00.004+08:00

"I think I've got regression problem - seem to be forgetten all the stuff I learned previously - whether old stuff picked up in Klang or new stuff just studied the day before - and that I think I've some kind of brain tumor or whatever in my brain..." <-- my train of thought when one day in tutorial, doc was talking about brain tumor in peads, and how some of them can present with regression of development, where they lost the skills or knowledge they learned. Then there I was pretty sure and concluded myself that I've something in my brain and actually nodded my head, trying to attribute my poor memory to the pseudo imaginative brain tumor! (maybe I really have le....) @%#$!^#!@

but I can't keep on like this... Things to memorize in medicine are too much. Ya ya, understand, so you don't have to memorize... as if life's so good! Not true, still there are important values, criteria etc etc to memorize..

Whatever, fact is, I need to get my memory power up. Here's my plan.

1. Gingko
2. Write when studying (can increase O2 supply to brain so better memory so I read)
3. Teach others :p
4. Sleep well (yeah i like this! bed time is the happiest time!)
5. Have some adrenaline rush once in a while (run, experience different things)
6. Eat well (pretty well, like pig d, hehehee)
7. Take a break (this is never enough, and I don't mean kit kat!)
8. Stretch (yes! yoga!)
9. Use mmemonics (..........)
10 repetition (...........................................................)
11. Reward myself (YEAH!!!)

PS: 呜呜。。。怎么这样难的。。。我要小叮当的记忆面包机！！！hehe. I like doraemon! :) Ang Ang Ang! :p

The Road Not Taken

2008-12-13T19:39:00.005+08:00

Litreature was introduced to us for the first time when I was in Form 4. Some of the short stories were really interesting, while most of the poems are just.. well, poems... which I don't find much joy in reading. hehe..However, one particular poem that left a very deep impression, and I find meaningful was this one - The Road Not Taken.

At that time, the feeling I got after reading was that life's full of choices and decisions to make! What piqued my interest was the mysterious road that's not taken. Where will it lead me to, if I were to choose the other path? Will I be different? (sure I will!) Will I be happy? (que sara sara) hehe... Whatever will be, will be! :)

"The Road Not Taken"
by: Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

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别总是想别人的都比你好，外国的月亮未必必较圆，圆也是很subjective的。所以要 make the best out of what you're having now! You're actually having a lot more than most people. 活在当下，快乐就好！：）

Gratitude

2008-12-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

最近天灾人祸频传，有洋房倒塌，有巴士失控翻覆，有土崩事件，造成的伤亡实在令人伤心。

责怪摆一边，这些都让我觉得人类的渺小，生命真的很无常，谁都无法去猜测，去肯定。所以，要时常提醒自己要感恩及尽情活在当下。我们拥有的东西太多了，要去珍惜及好好利用！

深呼吸！我还活着！：P

帶著愛的，一切將如願以償...

2008-12-06T14:48:00.003+08:00

她比他小20歲，嫁給他的時候，家鄉的人都以為她傍上大款。只有她知道，他到底是一個什麼樣的男人。

　　他只是一個普通的男人，黑，醜，一口黃牙。媒人當初可沒這麼說，只說是個過日子的男人，就因為家裏窮給耽擱了，一直沒找上媳婦。那陣子，沒找上媳婦的都去。山區找，有四川的、山西的、湖南的……花幾千元就可以找來。那男人也托人帶一個回來，這就是她，一個死了丈夫的女人。

　　媒人說男人富著呢，靠手藝吃飯。女人因為急於逃離那個家庭，問都沒問男人會什麼手藝就嫁過來了。過來後才知道，他的手藝就是在外面風吹雨淋地修鞋，再加上男人長得醜陋，讓她有種上當的感覺。回去，已無退路，婆家人叫她喪門星，說是她克死了丈夫。

　　再婚後，男人很寵她，隔三岔五給她買些小玩意來，一盒粉餅，一支口紅，幾串荔枝……她長到30歲，從來沒有用過口紅，更不用說吃荔枝了，很快，她就覺得自己比楊貴妃還要幸福，吃荔枝的時候，男人不吃，只是傻傻地看著她吃。她說：'你也吃。'他說：'我不愛吃它，看著你吃我就高興。'後來，她偶然上街，隨口問了一下荔枝的價格，嚇一跳，竟然要20元1斤。她的眼睛一? U?，他怎麼可能不愛吃荔
枝?他是捨不得吃呀。

　　她更加疼他，早晨早早起來給他做飯，晚上做好熱乎乎的飯菜等他回來；冬天的時候，男人在街上修鞋，一天下來，凍得全身冰冷，女人就把男人的腳放到自己懷裏暖著。男人也很知足，說是上輩子修來的福才會娶到她，他為什麼50歲還沒有結婚，就為等她唄。說得女人心花怒放。

　　女人見男人每天那麼累很心疼，她說：'給我買台機器吧，我和你一塊修鞋去。'男人不答應，說他掙的錢足夠養活她，可女人認真了，偏要去。於是街上總能看到一對老夫少妻在修鞋，兩個人緊挨著，有鞋修的時候，兩個人就一起動手，空閒時，就有說有笑地聊著。冬天刮大風，女人的手都凍紅了，耳朵也凍得青一塊紫一塊，這時，男人買來一塊烤紅薯，紅薯散發著誘人的香味。男人剝開，用嘴吹著，卻不吃，他把紅薯放到女人嘴邊，女人幸福地咬一口，又吹一吹，讓男人吃。他們一人一口地吃著，好像享受一頓美食，好像吃著愛情的聖塔。

　　有一天，男人對女人說：'總有一天，我會走在你前面。'女人就哭了，說：'那我和你一起去。'

　　男人說：'不行!'然後男人又說：'我們現在的錢還不? O很多，再掙幾年，給你養老應該沒問題。還有，我給你在地裏種了500棵樹，等有一天我去了，你也不能動了，那500棵樹也長大了，我相信它們能夠養活你。'

　　女人撲到男人懷裏哭了。500棵樹，那只是500棵樹嗎?這一輩子從沒有人替她這樣想過，可這個男人甚至為她想到老年，她覺得這輩子真是值了。現在城裏人興什麼夫妻樹、愛情樹，而她的男人給她種的樹要比那些樹珍貴一萬倍，那是一片夫妻同心樹。

收到了這封信，是因為有人在默默的祝福你，因為你也愛你身邊的一些人'。帶著愛的，一切將如願以償。

^_^ 你看到了嗎？我在默默的祝福你 ^_^

周公去了哪里？？

2008-11-28T01:59:00.000+08:00

回来吧。。。。。。。。我很sienz le.....

小小的不开心

2008-11-27T22:25:00.002+08:00

今天有小小的不开心（现在是觉得小小，当时是大大的很超级沮丧）。。都是自己不够用功，真的有待加强和改进。是啦。。。自己好玩。。所以现在自食其果啦！呜呜。。hehe!

其实不是。。我觉得很大原因是那很要我命的oncall! 每次oncall完隔天和隔隔天都会头脑一片空白，stuck 着想不到东西的感觉，blur blur de, 读又会钓到一大堆鱼回来，以前读过的挖也挖不回来。真气死人！

算了! 打不倒我的只会使我更坚强！我要变小强！haha! (才不要！！！)

Let's talk about something happier! Yeah yeah yeah! My ATM machine coming to me this weekend! :) hahaha.. transporting vitamin M all the way from Ipoh to here for me!

女人购物狂要开跑了！

Now presenting... my Wish List! --->

1. Cleanser - L'occitane shea butter cleansing water. :)
2. My secret magic sleeping mask!
3. Leave in hair conditioner - the cheap and reliable Tracia!
4. Body Shampoo - not yet decide.. still got time to decide
5. Pretty shoes - never enough, always in the list and in need! :)
6. Clerking file - koyak d, too hardworking? too frustrated?
7. Highlighter - orange color
......... tut tut........... wish list machine stuck coz $$ not enough....

blek! :P

Enjoying the dance of life! :)

2008-11-27T21:56:00.002+08:00

I like everything that's about dancing. I can relate to everything about dance. Dance itself is a very beautiful word to me and I love it. :)

And so, I love this quote much much! :P

When you dance, your purpose is not to get to a certain place on the floor. It's to enjoy each step along the way. That's what life is.

There's no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. It's what you bring to life..

"Wayne Dyer "

Keep on dancing the dance of life! :) Happiness is just beside and around you. How lucky you are huh. Get going!

A beautiful video to share

2008-11-25T17:28:00.003+08:00

Life's beautiful, appreciate the essence of it.

Find joy, in everything you do.
Smile, and just say 'thank you' for everything that comes to your life.

:-)

Stick this into your mind --> Don't Worry, Be Happy!

2008-11-14T19:52:00.003+08:00

When you worry you make it double

...Doesn't sound like a good deal to me. ;-)

I say -
Smile and make your worry disappear.
Laugh and make yourself a happy and cheerful person!

wahahahhahahahahhahaha :-))))))))))))))))

Don't Worry, Be Happy
From the Movie "Cocktails"
Performed by Bobby McFerrin

Here is a little song I wrote
You might want to sing it note for note
Don't worry be happy
In every life we have some trouble
When you worry you make it double
Don't worry, be happy......

Ain't got no place to lay your head
Somebody came and took your bed
Don't worry, be happy
The land lord say your rent is late
He may have to litigate
Don't worry, be happy
Lood at me I am happy
Don't worry, be happy
Here I give you my phone number
When you worry call me
I make you happy
Don't worry, be happy
Ain't got no cash, ain't got no style
Ain't got not girl to make you smile
But don't worry be happy
Cause when you worry
Your face will frown
And that will bring everybody down
So don't worry, be happy (now).....

There is this little song I wrote
I hope you learn it note for note
Like good little children
Don't worry, be happy
Listen to what I say
In your life expect some trouble
But when you worry
You make it double
Don't worry, be happy......
Don't worry don't do it, be happy
Put a smile on your face
Don't bring everybody down like this
Don't worry, it will soon past
Whatever it is
Don't worry, be happy

我要放假! 我要去旅行!

2008-11-09T14:12:00.007+08:00

我要去波兰吃波菜！
我要去葡萄牙吃葡萄！
我要去Luxembourg去学怎样读Luxembourg！
我要去西腊包腊肠！
我要去芬兰吃Shark Fin!
我要去冰岛穿bikini游泳！
我要去西班牙跳西班牙舞！
我要去意大利捉扒手！
我要去瑞士吃chocolates!
我要去Belgium卖cheese!
我要去爱尔兰爱爱！
我要去看芭蕾舞剧－一定一定要！！！

好了！发完梦了！可以读书了！YEAH!! hehe!

有一首歌要送給你...聽好~ 1, 2, 3~

2008-11-08T11:55:00.001+08:00

　i have you to be with,　everything will be easy
　晒的阳光　淋的雨滴　都值得回忆

　i have you to be with　懂心不够近才怕距离
　心电感应　绝不断讯　会如影随形

　曾灰心以为　我来错了世界　
太多想法很另类　找不到人了解
　当我说的感觉　牵动着你的脸
　互动的泪　让我们变得特别

　你是我的魔力　想要勇敢就想你
　一眨眼睛　把不如意　都变成流星

　你是我的魔力　心情不好我就想你
　删除忧郁　复制甜蜜　笑容不结冰

　幸福是间电影院　没有单人的座位
　要肩并肩　才能看好戏上演

I just wanna say...
Thank You. Thank You. Thank You! ;-)

有梦想的人是很幸福的!

2008-11-01T16:20:00.009+08:00

我跟你讲，有梦想的人是很幸福的，因为他可以尝到梦想实现的甜甜的滋味。。

昨天去L'occitane，就aim着一set hair mask + control mist + shampoo + conditioner， which cost a total RM166, which is heavily discounted from the original RM 250.

The radiant shine hair mask, boosting 3 essential oils bla bla bla, I tried before, very soft and nice smell. I've been eyeing this for long long time liao and so ngam my current hair mask finished d! The control mist is also something I really need coz sometimes come back from labor room I have this stinky smell of the blood n placenta around me! haha. And the shampoo and conditioner are just some travel size things that I like to collect. hehe..

And and and, as if to make it a perfect buy (from a good buy), the set allows me to enter point ngam ngam cross the line to get a RM50 voucher. See, a PERFECT buy right?

So there I thought, and happily excitedly very eagerly went to MidValley yesterday (last day to enter point and for the set promotion!). First I went to the Gardens one, after a great meal at the Garden, coz I got a vague bad feeling that maybe the set will somehow run out coz last day already and I guess the chance of finding it in the Gardens will be greater coz less people go there ma.

Uh oh... right to my prediction! The Garden's one really ran out of the set when I went to ask. Sob... never mind, I said to myself, Mid Valley maybe still got.

So there I went, to the MV's one. The first thing I did when I went inside was to look at the 'Special Buy' corner, which is essentially 一堆摆设很随意但又很美的东西. Hmm.. how to say le, go MV's loccitane see for yourself la. Got lots of products there, all with French words, headache! Lots of dried flowers here and there... some baskets (*wink wink)... some price tags.. so as you can imagine it's a bit of organized mess there.

Sigh.. no sight of the set I wanted! The salegirl also told me the set runs out already! Sob! I nearly 棚溃. haha.. (夸张!) Disappointed!!! How can they do this to me?!! People busy no time come and buy ma.. Sob! Haih... I was thinking... why my luck so bad de...So ngam de product cannot buy...

But but but, I didn't exactly give up coz my sister says she wants something else from L'occitane and I also wanted to try some of their good smell products like the Lavender and 4 roses (love love!). So I was poking around their samples, trying on the perfume and all that playing around with their things while trying to make up my mind on which one to buy so that can accumulate points and get some gifts. (you see, shopping not easy.. hehe)

And as you know, I'm not someone who can make decision right away, always wondering, running to and fro this product and that product, really can't make any sound decision.

I lost count of the time I spent inside, until I saw my friend already sitting on the chair there waiting liao.. haha.. no more 闲情 to accompany me to choose products. Haha!

Then then then, suddenly, out of the blue my eyes were locked on a basket in the middle of the 'mess' described just now - gasp - excited - wa! - can't believe it - there my dream set is sitting there! Yippee yippee! My heart inside already jumping up and down like a little girl. hehehe. :)

But waittt - is that a set for display or what?

So very 紧张ly I went to ask the counter people - is the set for sale? Hahah.. the sale girl must be thinking this girl... wanted the set so much... when they see my big smile when she says the set is really for sale and is the last one! hahaha. YEAH!!! Of course I want the set I told the salesgirl. hehe..

And there fly away my 3 RM 150 and some. But flying in next month a RM50 voucher which I'll go and 败家 again! yeah! Really love their products! Very yummy, just like the 甜甜的滋味 when I found the one I wanted!

Happy happy! :-)))))))))))))))

PS: hehe, at least there's something for me to look forward to when I go for 24 hours on call tomorrow in the labor ward. I think I'll very much need the nice nice smell of the hair mask when I come back from the dreadful on call!

Deng deng deng deng! Showing off my 战利品!

PPS: Oh I also bought a 梅酒 (plum wine) at a korean food fair at the Gardens. It says can get rid of tiredness wo... So maybe after on call can drink lo... become drunken and sleep soundly. haha! ;-) Something to look forward also. hehe.

傻瓜对话

2008-11-01T15:27:00.000+08:00

要给别人 the benefit of doubt, 知道吗？

＜点头＞知道了。

开窍了

2008-11-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

我知道了！开窍了！

不要去想它！

不要！

不要！

不要！

但是hor,越说不去想就越会想。。。挨。。。

我又知道了！Ding! Light bulb! hehe.

Make the place you are now the place you want to be! 就是接受当下吧！既来之则安之！当下就是真相嘛。对不对对不对？我有没有很聪明？哈哈！；－）

哇，胡言乱语了一大堆，昨天要放上来的shopping adventure都还没开工。不想luuuuuuu........ 去睡觉先！ zzzzz..... hehe ;-)

心里的对话

2008-11-01T13:46:00.003+08:00

There's no good or bad, thinking makes it so.

对啊！每个人看一件事情都不一样。所以才会有乐观的人和悲观的人。你可以往好的方面去想，也可以把它想成最坏的。全都是自己在脑海里决定，是自己的选择。可是在决定往好方面想时，又难免会怀疑说是不是自己在欺骗自己。我到底离真相有远吗？还是真相就其实是自己创造的？到底真相是什么？什么又是真相呢？

又道，demand the truth not.

是不是说真相根本不存在，不需要的，因为根本真相对每个人来说都不一样。。根本就是自己在塑造自己世界里的真相？

我不知该怎么办。。。救我！heheh ;-)

5 star hotel biscuit wo.... ;-)

2008-10-27T15:14:00.003+08:00

Wow wow wow.. This is the 5 star hotel biscuits kononnya... hehe.. Attracted by the recipe book which says this biscuit is usually served in higher end hotel only.. 好像很高级那样！It's called 'Walnut Coffee Strudel Cookies'. 这样就被吸引了！结果花了好一些功夫成果出来了。。。登登登登。。。

不错的是。。。但就是太sinful了！用了好多butter and sugar! 肥死了！哈哈。不过真的吃得不会停的。。太脆太好吃了！惨了。。回去要好好运动运动。；-）

美好时光就这样完了。回去是拼的时候了！要迎接新生婴儿了！我来了！！　ｙｅａｈ！　

永和豆浆在怡保？

2008-10-27T11:38:00.002+08:00

记得在台湾花莲实习时有到过那一边出名的永和豆浆，是24小时营业的。好特别！记得那是一个还蛮简陋的店头，叫了没有很超级好吃的油炸鬼，可能那一夜大家心头有一点点的怨气。。呵呵。。所以影响了食物的诠释。。

回来妹妹说怡保开了间永和豆浆，不懂是不是台湾的分行。。所以就去探了个究竟。。顺便去吃早餐。结果吃了回来还搞不清楚它到底是不是真宗的台湾永和豆浆，还是借其名而已。不过，让我来评评吧！我叫了肉排蛋烧饼，很脆很好吃！姐姐叫的萝卜糕也可以一下。不错不错！妹妹的培根蛋饼没尝到，但单凭外表觉得我自己做的应该不输吧。哈哈！爸爸叫的黑芝麻包就姗姗来迟，人家要走了它才要出炉，扣分！哈哈！

听说是开了一个礼拜，所以看他的员工都不那么有条理。。。应该可以先上豆浆或饮料的，但我们必须等他们上完别座的全部东西他们才上我们的饮料跟食物。。等到发霉了!不过可以赞一下他们的豆浆，没有很甜，刚刚好。喜欢！：）下次要去尝尝米浆。

想念想念！台湾玩乐实习的日子！我要放假！！！！！　

A happy ballet-ful day! :) - 7th September 2008

2008-10-02T18:09:00.008+08:00

Wow...

It's like a dream comes true for a little girl inside me who really likes dancing! It's rare that we get to see full-length ballet show in M'sia, isn't it? And I'm so grateful that on a clear-skyed Sunday one month ago, I was able to truly enjoy such a vibrant and happy tone Nutcracker. I absolutely love it!

The day started with a surprise visit to the Koi Garden which is just beside the KLPAC building, just a parking lot away. The koi fishes I tell you - WOW - have size that is easily bigger than my thigh!!! ;-) See see see, me trying to catch one back to cook a nice grilled BIG BIG koi fish - but wondering who's going to pay the RM 15,000 for me. hehe.

This is the entrance of the koi fish garden. Very japanese. See the clear blue sky - so nice! :)

The KLPAC is a gathering avenue for whatever artistic performance and dramas in the KL area. It's located at Sentul, as you can see from the signboard below. hehe. That's all I know. And surrounding this area are some very delicious eating stalls, according to my very generous 'driver' whose younger days' headland is just around this area. (thanks arigato terima kasih sheh sheh ni)

Me and Ivy, two dancing queens. :)
It's really a very well-planned and creatively-designed place. There's a big pond, with white ducks paddling happily (i guess so, dunno, should be happy lo, hehe). And also some 'on the water' little squares which you can go and have a sit and dangle your leg by the side, like this -->

Or, you can take off your high heels and just step inside bare foot (coz the floor is made of palang with lots of spaces and holes) and quickly snap a photo and fast fast get out before other people notice it! Like me in this photo hehe -->

Happy ducks! Lining up...

Holiday feel! :)

Overall, a very satisfying day! It was a nice break from being seccluded in the little Banting. :)

Oh the show itself - how to tell le - but I truly enjoyed from beginning till end.. Eyes were feasted with changing costumes and dances. Got belly dancing somemore. Good effort from the DuoDanceSpace (correct?). Can see some rising stars there. Love how the real person guy dancer suddenly reduce to become a small soldier toy figure on the floor. Magic, ya. hehe.

Happy. ;)

自动自发之大大update

2008-10-02T12:40:00.006+08:00

Seems like it's been 2 months since I last updated my blog! Sob sob.. nobody nags me to update it.. I've got no fans.. :( Hehe.. Never mind la.. I write this blog to serve as a record of things happening around me, and to share whatever new thoughts and ideas that come to mind.

So, what am I up to lately? Well, I'm now at home, enjoying the heavenly food everyday, and praying hard that it won't make me put on pounds! That's a tall order, isn't it... haih... Hehe..

Here's a quick run-down of the things I put into my stomach. hehe. These will send your salivary glands into high power! Be prepared. Goooooooooo....... hehe

1) Feccocia (?sp) - made by my sis. Tasted hard, like French bread loaf like that. This bread also originates from France, so we guess French people have super hard teeth, like to eat hard hard bread that can throw dog one. haha.. Inside got ham and cheese. Hmm... I don't quite like cheese like this, very 'obvious' and cheesy... I like cheese in a subtle way... like cheese cake.. yummy! hehe

2) Egg sandwich
Made by my dad. He likes to make this sandwich for us... hehe. No matter how many he makes, they'll be all gone in just minutes.

3. Egg roll of the Breakfast shop. (hahahhahaha - translated from 早餐店的蛋饼)

This one I made de!!! Haha.. Very fun hor...can swirl the egg around in the pan. I like anything cooked with a pan. Dunno why. hehe. This one very fulling, inside got hotdog and cheese (again!).

4. Tomato fried rice with scrambled egg

Yeah! This one also I cook de! Also with a pan!! Haha.. fun fun. Wa, now I only realize how much flavor shitake mushroom can bring to the dish.. Maybe it's the tomato sauce that I used wasn't enough, but the flavor of mushroom was really strong when I eat - and I really like it. Very flavourishly rich! Haha.. Really la! :)
5. Apple 'giap' Bread

Gasp! What is it? Haha.. first time seeing my younger sis eat this. So funny. Put apple into bread? So weird de combination! First, slice the apple into thin long slices, then spread the bread with peanut butter or anything you fancy and 'giap' the apple in between and you're done! In this picture looks like butter right? haha.. illusion. Taste-wise, hehe, just weird lo. But creative!
6. Crumble Coffee cupcake (meant to be)

Sob sob... this one turns out to be 'fatt-gou'-like texture. But hey, you think make fatt gou is easy?! Hehe.. and didn't see any crumbles on top of the cup cake! Haha.. Coz I misread the recipe.. thought the crumble should be hidden inside de.. Aiyo.. But anyway, really nice to eat. The top skin is really crunchy - dunno how to replicate it. Just know I simply do and it turns out like this. Always also like this de la! :) Xi guan jiu hao. haha.

More updates later! :) Nag me la, I'll post faster. haha

循众要求之小小update

2008-08-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

Wow... I certainly don't want to be one of those 虎头蛇尾 de people.. abandoning my blog half way. So here am I, trying to salvage my little blog.

Ok, so now what? You know how the trend of each week goes for me - Monday is a fresh new day, Tuesday going steady and well, Wednesday a bit want to get out of the routine, Thursday heart is running away and Friday I'm all on holiday! wahahaha.. That's life, I think.

So, today, a Thursday, my heart went to so many places in just a night. Firstly, it went to the Indian street for threading a again. It was an out of the blue spontaneous decision, which is very typical of me. hehe.. Opps.. I know I shouldn't be too proud of this coz it's got me into some trouble before.

Then, it also went to Thailand (really? hehe) for a really exotic and stress relieving body massage. Wow... it's truly an eye opener for me... ahem.. juicy details... reserved for intimate ones only. haha..

Then then then, as if it's still not enough, I got a rare chance to meet up with one of my longest same-class friend Shu Jin!! 9 years same class le... the longest record keeper. We shared so much of 'world's so so small' stories.. and we were laughing at each other's jokes and all that. Very inspiring, knowing how secondary school friends are the most sincere of all, ones whom we can always go back and rely on for honesty and real friendship. It's really nice to keep in touch, after so many years. Our next appointment is 2011, for our 10th year anniversary of graduation from ave maria convent ipoh! haha... and I'm the only one who's got a chance to meet her very nice boyfriend le.. heheheh..

Tomorrow, I'm on a special mission. hehe. :)

Is this hangover?

2008-08-05T09:51:00.002+08:00

My brain feels stuck... like glue sticking to each other.. cannot run properly. haha... staring at the davidson for hours but still nothing goes in. Neh, it's the contribution of this margarita lo. (image cannot be uploaded)

Margarita, taken from Wikipedia, is one of the most common tequila-based cocktails, made with tequila mixed with triple sec and lime or lemon juice, often served with salt on the glass rim. I find it more exotic to drink through glass rim with the salt. hehe. More chi gek! ;-)

Tequila, on the other hand, is a spirit made primarily in the area surrounding Tequila, a town in the highlands of the western Mexican state of Jalisco, 65 km northwest of Guadalajara. It is made from the blue agave (Agave tequilana azul), which is native to Mexico. Tequila is most often made at a 38–40% alcohol content (76–80 proof), but there are also several varieties of tequila produced with 43–46% alcohol content (86–92 proof). Gasp! So high ah! No wonder I'm getting this hangover - or is it not?

Never mind, I really enjoyed the magical dinner. It was at Chilli's. I've always wanted to reserve Chilli's for some significant event, like girls' outing after a major exam. However, there gone my first time in Chilli's! I had this warm fuzzy feeling of being in a foreign country during winter when they serve the hot, tantalizing food! The atmosphere of the people inside and the dim yellow light were really nice - very lively and happy tone!

This is me lo... the idealist June! :)

2008-07-30T21:27:00.000+08:00

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.

You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.

Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.

Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

Nutcrackers!

2008-07-27T14:00:00.005+08:00

Wow... what happened last week was really... haih... how should I put it... Maybe I'll just say things are beyond my control. It wasn't my slightest intention to have it end this way. I certainly feel bad, for not handling things the best I can, giving way to pressure and letting others to invade my thinking and stance. Putting aside what others have done, what's left is my own post-mortem of my action and words. But I'm glad to learn that I'm one who can easily let go and forgive, for nobody is ever perfect.

Ok, for more happy stuff, hehe... YEAH! Nutcrackers!!!

My heart was dancing and singing inside when I knew this from an old friend! hehe... Somemore got early bird discount. My feet are moving, my heart is singing and I'm dancing! ;-)

It's on the 6th and 7th of September (Sat n Sun) at KLPAC. Never been there before, heard it's a very cosy and nice place. I'm looking forward!!! YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!

PS: Gosh! This is the main thing that's going to keep me alive for the next one month!!!

肥猫阿猫 biscuit!!!

2008-07-23T13:28:00.001+08:00

What is 肥猫阿猫 biscuit??? If can guess I bake you one piece of it. hahaha... I think I'm moving more towards fun blogging... filling my blog with funny pictures, funny stuff.. hehe... Whenever you feel down and need some laugh, switch on my blog. (you can thank me later) hehe.. Life's great and happy! YEAH!

Can guess or not?

Can you guess what is this?

2008-07-21T18:37:00.002+08:00

hahahahahhaha.. This is easily the funniest picture on earth!! And it's produced by my baking freak sister. haha. We just can't stop laughing when it turned out like this.. hahahahahhaha.. and another round of laughing when we review the pictures. hahahahahah.. I told her I MUST blog about this funny little cinnamon roll, despite her rolling eyes on me. hahahahaha. I don't care I don't care. hehe

搞笑蛋蛋图片

2008-07-12T16:48:00.001+08:00

觉得这张图片很搞笑。。。hehe。。。想象放一个人在冰箱里会是怎样。。哈哈。真觉得我有点虐待倾向。。.haha

Are you yourself today?

2008-07-11T20:47:00.002+08:00

I like it when I'm very me. I laugh, I play, I tease, I say stupid things, I eat, I dance, I dream, and I just don't care!!

Ya! That's the way it should be. I'm loving the every moment I'm just me. ;-)

Are you YOU today? *wink*

The smell of... ballet! ;-)

2008-07-08T20:51:00.004+08:00

Wow.. it certainly feels so so nice to have someone to 'talk ballet' with!

The smell of ballet shoes, the high foot arches, the blisters, the broken toe nails, the performing on stage, the simple passion and love for dancing that we just couldn't put into words... I can really feel my heart dancing inside d.

And I seriously think ballet shoes, especially pointe shoes are the most gorgeous shoes on earth. Don't you think so too? ;-)

I used to have a miniature ballet shoe key chain from Sacha which I prized and loved so much that I kept it somewhere very safe. But the sad thing is, it's so secretive that I forgot where I put it already! :( Haiya... I really miss it la. It's so pretty that I can spend the whole hour looking and admiring it. It's this lovely!!!

I've never been to me

2008-07-07T22:01:00.003+08:00

I like this song. I'm listening to the version sung by SHE. It's soothing and very dear to ears.

Sometimes we go through life without knowing what exactly is it that we want. We may think we know what we want now, but in the end of the day, we may think otherwise.

It could be we really have never been to us before, or it could be humans can never be satisfied.

This song, is sung by the singer to a hosuewife, who wanted to trade her everyday housewife life with the life of the singer. And the singer tells of her life's highlights, in a rather bittersweet tone, and at the same time express her emptiness and hollowness. She wished someone has told her the same thing she's telling now. She thinks it's too late now, to realize what's really important in life.

I once wondered also, what the 10 years later future me would think about the current me at this point of life now. Would I be proud of myself? Would I be happy with what I've done? Would I regret anything I haven't done? Would I think I hold back too much? Would I think I have love enough? Would I think I've lived enough? Would I think I've touched people's heart enough?

I wouldn't say I haven't been to me. I've been to me. And I love where I've been. It's a place where it sings when it's happy, and where it cries when it's sad. It's a very special place. Yours is, too. :)

I've Never Been To Me
( Charlene )

Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you.....

Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies....

Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me

[spoken]
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding, it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love......

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
Hey lady......
I've been to paradise, (I've been to paradise)
But I've never been to me

(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Neice and the isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to cryin' for unborn children that might have made me complete)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me

Post-sickness lethargy

2008-07-05T16:32:00.003+08:00

Huuu... what a sickness! It's really burning me out.. I mean I'm like so stagnant... sleepy... droopy.. can't get enough of sleep... slow brain... can't think... the most scary thing is, I think I've lost some of my brain cells and memories... I'm like very blank when I clerk case in the ward today... Help me!!!

I'm so not me. haih... Not the usual happy, up-beat and positive me. Now I'm drowsy, sleepy and just plain tired... take some rest. :)

哇！欲火焚身！

2008-07-04T18:47:00.002+08:00

没有啦！是感冒所致的发烧啦！Haiyo... if you were to ask me what I've done these few days maybe I won't be able to recall and answer you.. because I somehow got this thinking that my brain somehow got burnt by the heat inside my body. Really uncomfortable. Oh yeah, that's why I couldn't answer properly what is the sensory supply of ulnar nerve today in class...

But one good thing is it gives me an excuse (a reason more of it) to sleep from 7pm to 7am the next morning. Still... not enough.. still forever sleepy and drowsy. I think I'm really burning my brain cells.. burning lungs and liver as well.. hopefully it'll burn away my fat also. ;-)

Burn burn burn! Burn away the stupid virus. I want to get well!!

This day 4 years ago...

2008-06-29T19:28:00.002+08:00

...I was still a fresh new alien to the 6th college. I remembered walking along the corridor towards the dining hall and felt weird of the structure of the stairs coz they really looked like remnants of war-fare and wondered how am I going to survive for the rest of my 5 years here.. haha.. I remembered bringing the pail and everything and actually wondered what I need the pail for - don't they have washing machine or some sort?? haha.

And then... there were also memories of being orientated. Blur is the only word I can use to describe myself.. Really unsure of what's happening around, just following friends and instructions.

When asked to do task, I blurted out 'dancing!' out of my mind without thinking. Was I surprised at myself, after two years of stopping ballet, I just danced out of nothing. And I was like 'gosh I could still do arabesque!' It feels kinda good and I'm actually loving the moments I'm on my feet doing some stun. haha. And there I went on to tipu a lot of signatures. heheh.

Now, it's time to 'treat the freshies really good'... hehehehe. I can't wait! ;-)

Thanks bear bear! ;-)

2008-06-28T20:06:00.004+08:00

11 years of friendship is hard to come by. I'm so glad we made it so far - and I'm sure there're still many more decades to come for us to celebrate. ;-) I won't simply let you go one - hehe - coz you know so many of my little and big secrets!!! ;-) shh...

Thanks for treating me for birthday, although you're stuck in your current position. I'm touched la.. a bit lo. heheh... :-) Don't always say I have bad influence over you la... it'll make me guilty one. haha.

Same to you la- may your deepest wishes will come true one day. I want to be the first to know o... ;-)

Lalalalalalalala... :-)))))))))))))))))

生日快乐

2008-06-28T08:37:00.002+08:00

佛教常说，生日是母难日。所以，这篇文章是献给我母亲的。

这么多年了，我还是很想您。
我真的很怕有一天我会忘了您的样子，
但我知道是不可能的，
因为母亲的味道是独一无二最醇香的。
可是我还是会一直很努力的提醒自己要想您，
但我会很怕因为每一次想您我都会掉眼泪。
因为我真的还很怀念您。

谢谢您，给了我您最好的一切。
Thanks for the pat on the back each time I study,
Thanks for encouraging me to be the best I can each time,
Thanks for showing me what is true love.
True love never hurts, it's just there.

因为失去，我更加珍惜。
因为缺陷，我更加知道我会是更加特别的。
因为您，我是今天的我。

我会很爱我自己，因为我也很爱您。

:-)

Pig Intestine Fun

2008-06-27T21:40:00.004+08:00

Heheheh... seldom do people can get what I mean when I say that - but somebody today very smart, can understand what I want right away. haha. Thanks ya Mr Tang.

I actually expected the Hongkong style one, with prawns or mushroom inside that kind. But it came back as the one with peanut sauce and some add-ons. Never mind, it's just as good. In fact I think the fishball is really nice. Really tired of eating the 'counterfeit' fishball in the canteen. This one really has the consistency of real fishball. Hehe.Can you see can you see.. pig intestine inside... hi hi.. ;-)

As I eat, it brings back memories of Klang food. Mind you, it's the pasar malam or pasar pagi food, not the canteen food! Though the Klang's canteen aunty and uncles are really nice and much freedom given to us, but that doesn't mean I can overlook their faulty fish!

I really miss standing there waiting for the best-selling curry mee. I remembered going there at around 6pm with a bunch of friends and be told it's all sold off - so you can imagine how good their business is! And the long queue at the rojak stall - the indian aunty who always leave me feeling like a see-through glass coz she sees only her long-term customers, and not us new students. haha. Also the Yong Taufu stall, one where its sauce resembles what I ate today.

What else... hmm... Yeah, the popiah stall, very crunchy very nice. hehe.. Oh ya, me and my roommate's favourite 麦粥 and fresh soya bean milk in the pasar pagi. Also the oil fried ghost and ham chim peng stall just beside it. Hehe.. I so so so miss the time where me and Juni will purposely wake up early to do marketing at pasar pagi on saturdays... haha... the early morning wind... so fresh and wheezy... nice nice nice. and we also cook our own chicken soup (with ginseng somemore!!!), red bean soup etc etc.. wow...

Ok ok, stop indulging in past memories. Full-stop.. hehe... Back to present.. ortho ortho.. cut bone cut bone.. I want to see amputations!!!

突发奇想之我是水人!

2008-06-27T17:43:00.003+08:00

我觉得我是水人! 因为我真的很爱游泳。hehe... 每次游泳就像在跟水合力完成一道美妙的海地舞。很棒！！ :-)))

心情不好的时候，看一下这篇文章

2008-06-27T13:36:00.001+08:00

有一天早上，大公主醒来，一如往常地用发夹整理她的秀发，却发现少了一个发夹，于是她偷偷地到了二公主的房里，拿走了一个发夹。二公主发现少了一个发夹，便到三公主房里拿走一个发夹；三公主发现少了一个发夹，也偷偷地拿走四公主的一个发夹；四公主如法炮制拿走了五公主的发夹；五公主一样拿走六公主的发夹；六公主只好拿走七公主的发夹。于是，七公主的发夹只剩下九十九个。隔天，邻国英俊的王子忽然来到皇宫，他对国王说：「昨天我养的百灵鸟叼回了一个发夹，我想这一定是属于公主们的，而这也真是一种奇妙的缘分，不晓得是哪位公主掉了发夹？」公主们听到了这件事，都在心里想说：「是我掉的，是我掉的。」可是头上明明完整的别着一百个发夹，所以都懊恼得很，却说不出。只有七公主走出来说：「我掉了一个发夹。」话才说完，一头漂亮的长发因为少了一个发夹，全部披散了下来，王子不由得看呆了。故事的结局，想当然的是王子与公主从此一起过着幸福快乐的日子。

为什么一有缺憾就拼命去补足？一百个发夹，就像是完美圆满的人生，少了一个发夹，这个圆满就有了缺憾；但正因缺憾，未来就有了无限的转机，无限的可能性，何尝不是一件值得高兴的事！人生不可免的缺憾，你怎样面对呢？逃避不一定躲得过面对不一定最难受孤单不一定不快乐得到不一定能长久失去不一定不再有转身不一定最软弱别急着说别无选择别以为世上只有对与错许多事情的答案都不是只有一个所以~我们永远有路可以走你能找个理由难过你也一定能找到快乐的理由懂得放心的人找到轻松懂得遗忘的人找到自由懂得关怀的人找到朋友天冷不是冷心寒才是寒愿你的心都是暖暖的.... 人的长大伴随着一些失落,人的成熟附带着一些伤痕. 好在有希望这东西,你总还可以去等；好在人与人之间，距离产生美感；好在生命里,快乐比痛苦多；好在这个世界,还有很多美丽；好在当你成熟的时候，你还不算一无所有！

Hope this article will bring some warmth and hope into your heart, just as it did for me. :)

Be bold

2008-06-26T21:45:00.003+08:00

“Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life you will regret the things you did not do more than the things you did.”

Ya, it's so true. I really regretted something I didn't do today... Lesson learned! Time to move on and get engaged in living my own life. ;-)

Courageous courageous... how can I train that?

鬼鬼祟祟偷渡者

2008-06-26T19:58:00.003+08:00

Yeah, 刚游完泳，一扫连日来的压力及累感。。。真的要感谢刚拔完智慧牙的XXX肯忍痛让我去kacau他，借我冲凉。hehe. 由于不是UT的住客了，所以进去时有点象偷渡客的感觉。进去时还要特地走short-cut,显出我是这里人。本要假假按lift上去顺便跟XXX打声招呼，但等lift又太久所以直接跳进泳池了。害的XXX以为我没去了。

好久没有游泳了！好开心，好满足。还有个自信风度男来跟我搭讪，哈哈哈。这才是重点吧。。。才不是呢！！！重点是回来途中黑漆漆给一个人低沉的声音吓到, 还是问我打电话了没有!!

真不知college这么回事，那么黑都不装一些灯。

Thanks! For the wonderful memories....

2008-06-26T13:24:00.005+08:00

This blog entry is specially dedicated to my two best friends in UM medical life - Juni and Ley Siang. I forgot how we got together but it was like a natural thing - to click and stick together. I can't imagine my study life without you two - it's so much fun and laughter each time we're together, washing away the gloomy and blue study days.

I think we complemented each other very well - somebody has to listen right, somebody has to do the talking right, somebody has to laugh right.. hehe and there we make a good trio. ;-)

Thanks for the companionship for everything girlish and the understanding when I'm very chu xing da yi. Yeah, I made birthday wishes for you two too! ;-) Hope we'll each achieve what we want in life and be happy and happy always. Gambateh!

吃饱饱，好上路！

2008-06-22T14:49:00.004+08:00

Yesterday's left over white mushroom sauce is made into good use today when I add it to my 蛋包饭. Very filling indeed! Ya, because of the super fattening butter and milk I used. ;-)

I think I'll miss home-cooked food a lot when I go back. Haiyo.. still 2 hours more only at home.

I now have 12 coconut balls cookies waiting for me inside the oven. Geez... but I don't have high hope for it as I simply made up the recipe after I found that I don't have enough ingrediants - I would really be glad if they turn out to be edible at all. haha.

My close friend says I'm a very chin cai person. hehe.. yeah, I'm always agak-agak, put ingrediants very lazy to measure la... simply add things according to suka-hati... not following exactly the recipe la.. hehe. I'm ok with it, coz following rules will kill all the fun.

We'll see how things turn out this time. ;-)

awareness and acceptance

2008-06-21T20:42:00.006+08:00

Earlier on I came across this quote that kinda sticks to my mind, and I started applying it in my daily life.

It says 'the first step to change is awareness'.

So, I started paying attention to my line of thoughts, my actions, my words, my body language, my reactions, as well as looking at how people response to me, both verbally and non-verbally. I even went on to stay quiet in a group conversation and observing my friends talking. And then when I'm alone, back in my room, I tend to run things over and I started to see things which are not so apparent from the surface.

It's not exactly fun. It was 'painful' sometimes, because I discovered many things about myself, and others, but mainly myself. I become aware of the many hidden intentions and insufficiency and insecurities that I have in myself. I know I'm judging myself. And I know I shouldn't judge others, more so myself. I feel sad, and sometimes get angry over myself. I longed for change. I even wanted to change myself overnight, once I see my 'ugly' side.

But later on, I learned that there's a second line that follows the first quote. It says, the second step is to accept.

It didn't quite stick me for the first time I read the second line. But somehow it sticks to my mind and I carried it on for a few days until just now, I came across this website about the psychology of sexuality and love. It's a long read. And not an easy one because of the many psychological terms.

The essence of it is that it puts a very clear picture on true love and common love. There's no right and wrong here. It's just different needs and perspective. But somehow, the summary is so beautifully crafted that it sort of answers my heart. ;-)

True healing involves two things: (a) to see clearly what is wrong and (b) to have the compassion to call it to change. This means, first of all, that unconditional acceptance of anything gets you nowhere. If you take no responsibility for the world around you, and if you’re unwilling to call error for what it is—that is, if you’re always missing the point—then you contribute nothing of any healing value to the world. And that’s not love. On the other hand, if you treat error with hatred, condemning it to hell, the bitter poison in your own heart will end up condemning you to hell. And that’s not love either.

And so it is with your own mental health. First you have to recognize your life for what it is, being honest about your emotional pain and all the mistakes and errors you’ve committed trying to hide from your despair. And then you have to listen to that despair with compassion and let it tell its whole story, so that the very core of your heart will be transformed—rather than push your despair into some dark corner of your unconscious to be seduced with . . . perversion.

I really enriched myself spiritually through the article. It explains a lot of things that confused me - you've to read it for yourself. I make a promise to myself to be more compassionate and gentle to myself the next time I find me judging myself. Well, it's certainly not an answer to end, I'm still on my quest finding the answer, as well as my spiritual partner. ;-)

ps: Is this post somehow confusing? Never mind, you don't have to understand me, you just have to live with me! ;-) hehe. I'm really not too hard to live with after all- you know that right? *wink*

Rosti rosti I love you! :)

2008-06-21T12:40:00.004+08:00

Wow... I didn't know I was this good! heheh. Sorry la, bear with me while I indulge in my own world of pride can ah... ;-)

Remember the failed first rosti? Well, I attempted for the second time, after we bought a new grater.

This time the grater's hole is bigger. So, the potato slices that come out of it are bigger and won't stick together like a mashed potatoes. haha.

Same method. But, I have whipped up my own white mushroom cream sauce last minute. It certainly upgrades my plain old rosti from A to A +++. hehe.

Nice nice nice. I absolutely love it. If you can find it, look back at my previous post on the rosti taken at Marche and compare - whose looks nicer? *wink* *wink* hehe.

And here's a picture of my sister's coconut tart she did yesterday before rushing to KL to see her idol penguin. hahahah. Oh and thanks for the evaporated milk she left over - just nice the amount to prepare the white sauce. Oh yummy yummy.

Now she has some coconut shred that she left over in the fridge, waiting for me to use it up. What can I do with it ah? Headache pulak!

ps: I really don't mind eating like there's no tomorrow at home, because I know that when I'm back in hostel, I'll get slim very fast, thanks to the hostel food, which always leave me hungry an hour after eating it. hehehe.

Yeah I'm part of the Guinness World Record! ;-)

2008-06-18T19:43:00.003+08:00

I'm a BIG fan of Firefox if you don't know yet. I promote firefox everywhere I see fit. ;-) The main factor is safety, and I really like how they're designed by people who actually use brain. Very intuitive interfere. Never had any major issues with it and it's extremely stable.

And today, Firefox is trying to set a Guinness World Record - most software downloaded in 24 hours! For today, 18th June, until 2.15am (M'sia time), you can still download and be part of the success.

http://www.spreadfirefox.com/en-US/worldrecord

They're targetting 5 milions downloads. And till this time of writing, they already had 6,085,765 downloads.

You can also see the breakdown of each region. M'sia is 22k while S'pore is 20k. How?? Migrate or not? ;-)

What's happening to me in ortho posting?

2008-06-18T17:57:00.005+08:00

I really don't want to think that I'm burning out... but each time I come back I feel like a dead person, just want to hang my legs up and rest my eyes. I said rest my eyes, not my brain, because with the many new physical examination to be learned, I wasn't able to sleep very soundly in the day. I've got no more energy left for things I used to enjoy. I don't have energy for yoga anymore. I don't even feel like standing in the bathroom bathing for so long because of tired legs from standing in the clinic whole afternoon. This is really bad. I don't want to further strain myself. So I think I need to restore some sanity this weekend by going back home. Recharge recharge.

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I really enjoy classes by ortho lecturers. Yesterday we had one by Dr Chua who took us for POP lesson. I tell you, there were no other lecturer who can make us all laugh every 1 or 2 minute. We literally laughed through the whole class! He's so funny. ;-) And I really laugh like there's nobody around. hahahah.

Too heavenly good!!!

2008-06-15T22:19:00.003+08:00

I can't keep my hands off my arms!!! It sinks in completely and leaves a smooth surface to touch. And don't even mention about the heavenly good smell - it makes me feel like I'm on holidays now - I can't study now!

As you can see, I rarely blog about my skin care stuff but I can't help but rave about this one.

This Green Tea body whip - I got it at 25% discount as part of the birthday month discount. It's one of their best sellers and I don't see why it's not.

It comes in a jar - and this makes it a good decoration sitting there on my table.

It's earned a seal of recommendation from me - for its many feel-good factors and effectiveness. ;-)

Happy Daddy's Day! ;-)

2008-06-15T13:14:00.002+08:00

光良曾在演唱会上唱这首歌而感动掉泪。我明白及可深深体会这种东方人的含蓄的尴尬处境. 想说爱你又说不出口，只好take comfort in knowing that by living your own life happily and healthily itself is a gift to every parents.

歌曲:拥抱我
歌手:光良专辑:约定

当我还是小孩的时候
最快乐是你牵我的手
一起和这音乐自由跳动
那么简单
不需要理由
一年一年张大了以后
我们不再容易被感动
是否世界变了
你也变了
记忆中的旋律却依旧
温习回味你曾拥抱我
想念只在这一个角落
生命中最美最美的那一刻
笑容藏在你我的心中

:-)

For my own reference

2008-06-15T11:00:00.002+08:00

Knee anatomy tour
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_StElDL5A64&feature=related

Special tests:

Anterior cruciate ligament
1. Anterior drawer's test
2. Pivot shift test - extended, valgus, internal rotate and FLEX in for pop
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILMWpup_6Hs&feature=related
3. Lachmann's test
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_zUEzew9Rk&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILMWpup_6Hs&feature=related

Posterior cruciate ligament
Posterior drawer's test
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28mJFyHMXHo&feature=related

Medial collateral ligament - Valgus stress test
How to do it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j_Ke0bmsJXE&feature=related
Positive test: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_fxKCDkOiJs&NR=1

Lateral collateral ligament - Varus stress test
How to do it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kZm5VEHKMPQ&NR=1
Positive test: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nsvfjkAMvpo&NR=1

Meniscus - McMurray's test
Medical meniscus - full flex, external foot, valgus knee
Lateral meniscus - full flex, internal foot, varus knee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwBW-X4n1fU&NR=1

Scary dreams

2008-06-14T21:46:00.003+08:00

I hate this! Stupid scary dream!!!

It's always been this way whenever I'm stressed-up... aih... Have to find ways to relax.

Believe me when I say...

2008-06-13T21:21:00.002+08:00

Everything is happening perfectly, in its own time, in its own way.
Just let go and enjoy in the moment! ;-)

Whatever happens, happens for a good reason.

The story of undercooked chicken...

2008-06-13T12:44:00.003+08:00

Sun sets quite late yesterday evening. And I was sitting at a table where the setting sun light could reach. While I was happily eagerly poking my fork through my chicken's drumstick, I noticed some yucky reddish flesh near the bone there... It looks undercooked to me.

So I was thinking it's my right to refuse an undercooked chicken and get a replacement - so there I went to the nice makcik at the canteen and showed it to her. Uh oh, while I was there, I noticed the chicken flesh wasn't as red as how I saw it on the dining table. It looked cooked to me at that moment, like normal chicken drumstick. What happened next isn't important, but what got me thinking was... how we see things in different light.

I mean, the color remains the same, it doesn't change. But what changed the color was the light imposed on it, therefore making it looks cooked or uncooked.

Same with what we're experiencing each day. The matter/fact remains the same. But what changed the situation is how we see it, and what kind of emotion we're associating it with, therefore making it a good/bad experience.

We all want happiness. And I think this is the key to happiness, where the little heart inside you decides to be happy from within, and therefore able to see things in the best light possible.

Likewise, a good experience can be made better if we can project a more positive emotion towards it. When we're happy from inside, things outside don't matter that much, because you'll see things positively and you know it's going to be a good experience. ;-)

And to feel good from inside, we've to find out what makes us happy. For me, doing little dancing, getting in touch with my own body helps me feel lifted. I didn't know this until today, while in ortho class with Prof Sengupta, we were talking about back pain and back examination. We started doing the back flexion and extension ourselves. Once I started doing it I can't stop! I started to twist here and there, trying to loosen up every joint in my body like what I used to do before ballet class last time. And then I went on to do a bit of foot pointing, trying to get into developpe, and even rise up and down. And I found for the rest of the class, I could concentrate better and think faster. And I felt smarter too. haha. ;-)

I'm glad I found my own happy trick. Have you found yours? ;-)

哇，有好吃的！

2008-06-11T17:21:00.004+08:00

好忙好忙。。。6 clinics to attend for 2 times each, countless lectures and ward rounds, rehab medicine classes, radio classes, somemore minor and major operation theatres. But I'm not complaining - orthopedics surgeons are a friendly lot - they really like to teach I think. :) But sometimes jamming too much into our head on a stuffy and sleepy afternoon is not a good idea also. Hehe.

百忙之中，so glad and thankful to my two good friends who happened to go out and brought back a nice dinner for me. After being so busy and packed over studies, finally there a little bit of time for me to 偷闲享乐. 吃东西很快乐，不是吗？;-) Somemore got one cup of sweet soya bean, to sweeten my very bitter and sad mind after attending KS Lim advanced neuro class (to me).

On being grateful

2008-06-09T19:33:00.003+08:00

When things are not turning out right,
when things are not happening the way we want,
when things are just going crazy and turn sour,

at least,
have a heart of gratitude.

be thankful that you're still alive,
for many people living on the edge of life
not knowing whether they'll wake up the next morning

be thankful that you still have a healthy body,
for many are suffering with pain and
struggling with end-stage diseases

be thankful that you still have a roof over your top,
for many are rendered homeless due to disasters

be thankful that you still have food to fill your stomach,
for many are living in hunger and poverty

and lastly, be thankful that you still have the wisdom of
gratitude, for this is the key to more abundance.

only through appreciation and thankfulness
that you're going to send out energy to the
universe that you like what you're getting
and eventually more will come your way.

:)

This is how I, and in fact everyone of us, consciously or not,
manifested what we're today.

I'm forever grateful that I learned this early on, and this
has helped me manifested a lot of goodness in life. :)

May all beings be well and happy. ;-)

Back to school :(

2008-06-08T21:25:00.002+08:00

It seems to me that now I'm having one of those 'back-to-school' blues that I recall I last had during my secondary or even primary school. You know, the 'unfamiliar' and unpleasant feeling of returning to school after a looooooong year-end break.

Well, this time's holiday is just a short one week, however, I must admit that it's like something I have never experienced before in the recent past few years. I realized that unlike previous holidays, this time I totally stayed at home, practically refraining from books and just enjoying my holidays away. I felt a great sense of relaxation and relieve. I couldn't ask for more. ;-)

Now, I miss home so much - I want hot water bath and home cook food!! :(

返回朴实生活

2008-06-07T16:50:00.002+08:00

回乡下耕田？？没有啦！只是刚才看到一位朋友的blog写他要骑脚车来应付日渐越涨的汽油，觉得很有创意。hehe.

物品涨家是预料中的啦，真讨厌，钱越变越小，花钱很心痛！不过想会来这是一个很好的机会来让浪费资源惯的幸福马来西亚人民醒醒，资源不是用不尽的，这样没有节制的用，迟早有一天会完的。东西便宜，那么容易得到，所以不会珍惜。现在东西贵了，会省用，节制，以确保来年还有机会享用。

不过物价上涨，苦的还是我们普罗大众，但是我想，人是有应变能力的，穷则变，变则通。：）我想我还是去卖脚车好了，说不定有一天脚车会大卖。hehe.

Housemanship expectation questionnaire

2008-06-06T21:33:00.003+08:00

I'm not sure whether it has always been this way (got to ask seniors), however, I was pretty surprised to receive this questionnaire in the mail today, in a Seri Paduka Baginda letter. Inside, the questions asked were pretty straight to the point, very relevant and definitely show that effort are being put in to craft the questions.

One question that sticks out in my mind was "I had thought of quitting my medical education due to the stress of the course" - we were asked to rate 'never, sometimes, always'.

Well, stress if definitely there, especially when it's near exams, even more so with important clinical exams. However, quitting does require a great deal of courage. Most of the time, whenever exams are near, I find myself and those around me complaining to each other, entertaining the idea of just throwing in the towel and leave for good. hehe.. But, of course, I said 'entertain' the idea only ma.. After exams we'll be back to our happy selves. And when it's exam time again, the whole cycle repeats itself. That's life I guess. ;-)

Also, the last question was greatest fear on becoming a houseman - hmm.. of course, fear, uncertainty, everything. Sometimes I really doubt my ability to go through it - it seems really really hard and draining, especially the long working hours and work load. Haih... how ah... maybe I should stop being lazy and get more stuff into my brain while I'm still a student.

Time to work hard, dear me. ;-)

原来是这样的... The story of Rosti

2008-06-05T18:32:00.009+08:00

Rosti... a young guy married to Rose, therefore called Rosti. haha. of course not la!

Rosti, is actually a potato dish originated from Switzerland. When one mentions about Switzerland, we usually think about cheese, if not skiing (ok, this is not food), so what about wine? But, very rarely people associate Switzerland with potatoes.

But the fact is, rosti is a national dish of Switzerland. What they do is, they pluck their potatoes from under the ground from their garden - fresh ingrediants are usually the best. Then they wash and boil a bit the potatoes, peel off skin and grate the potatoes into thin slices. Then they heat the pan, melt the butter and just fill the pan with the potatoes and let the bottom turn golden brown (about 5 minutes) and flip them over (by turning it over on a plate and slide it again back to the pan) and let the other side turn golden brown and that's it!

Sounds easy right? So I thought. And there I went into the kitchen, trying to whip up my own Rosti. Blame the utensil - the grater is too small the hole, I actually ended up with something like a fried mashed potatoes. Really sad.. very frustrated also because the kitchen got lots of mosquitoes flying around and very hot. The taste, however, remains great - who doesn't like french fries?? (PS: 本来做了放在一旁不懂要怎样处理，但是爸爸拿起来, 尝了一口立刻说＇好吃啊！＇就帮我统统吃下。hehe. 好感动)

But later I found this picture in Wiki , which pretty much resembles my Rosti. hehe.. Hmm... Looks like I can 安慰 myself that I'm pretty much on the right track, just that the Rosti I tried in Marche was much much more presentable.

I actually got to know about this dish after visiting Marche restaurant in The Curve. Marche is actually a ~~German~~ French word for market. What's special about this restaurant is they give you a 'passport' (essentially a card) to collect chops for the dishes you ordered and in the end you settle the 'passport' at the cashier before you leave. Misplacing the 'passport' entails a fine of RM200 - donated to your charity of choice. Cunning huh.

We had a great time there (time with sisters are always the best!) - the atmosphere was very warm and lively - just like a pasar. The tables and chairs are of different themes - next time gonna sit on the chair with a 'fruit face' hehe.

Deng deng deng deng! 出炉了!

2008-06-04T17:39:00.004+08:00

Hehe... 第一次做muffin还真满意, 至少muffin有发，因为之前姐姐做的都不开口，不象muffin,而且还硬得可以拿来丢狗. haha.. 在节食中的妹妹连吃了四个, 说晚餐不用吃了。好高兴！做的人就因此而满足，容易吧!

从oven拿出来时感觉到一股热气飘出来，还差点烫到手！不过有一点很好是我过后把热气当steam face那样，可以直接去洗脸做mask了。 hehe.

Ok，放迈我的午餐，nothing fanciful, just a very tomato-ish spaghetti loaded with lots of anti-oxidants and vitamins. I put a lot of onions, as I like the irresistable fragrance that comes out when I fry it. Then I added in my long-lost friend capsicum - it serves to add a little hint of spicy flavor. My housemates used to frown on me whenever I cook with capsicum (which is often) coz many don't like it. hehe. And of course the brocolli, very sweet on its own even. In the end, a really satisfying lunch. :)

我的电话！！！ :(

2008-06-03T17:35:00.002+08:00

好伤心！！！我心爱的手机竟然坏了！它抛弃我了。。。我很喜欢它因为它真的很特别，小小的，一个手掌刚刚好握完，很多看过它的人都很惊叹说它这么那么小。：）而且它是独一无二，哈哈，至少我没看过别人有跟我一样的电话。我就是那么喜欢跟别人有不一样的东西。还有就是它的来源是有个典故的。hehe!

唉。。。讲回来还是很烦。。要repair LCD不便宜，而且LG's parts很难找。觉得买新的比较划。可是又不舍得花钱。比起以前有收入的时候，我现在花钱比较会心痛，觉得钱能省则省, 要花也要花得值得。看来我又要 go into research mode and find a 经济又实用的电话。

这几天都像盲人那样，screen 都被 zig zag 的线条遮着了，只能凭记忆去按，so that 我可以打回给sms 我的人. 我还真不错嘛! ;-)

真希望天会掉下一个手机给我，so that I don't have to choose and make a decision...

假期挑战!

2008-06-01T07:52:00.004+08:00

哇！！口水直流了吧？哈！我也是。。。迫不及待要回家试做。让自己在这轻松悠闲假期有个小挑战，看看可不可以做出像她一样的dish. ：）献丑了！如果不成功的话不放上来了。哈哈！

I took these from a forum in Chinese Cari.com.my called 快乐厨房一位叫 Mikiko 的幸福女人所开的贴。好羡慕。。。可以每天在家专心做菜给爱人吃，还可以花心思把菜都打扮得美美, 不用工作。我也要！！！hehe.

Sob sob... my phone!!!

2008-05-31T21:54:00.002+08:00

Is it sign of impending death? My handphone just now showed some zigzag rainbow like lines... and now some of the words are covered by the lines... cham... must be the phone old already... i can't imagine losing it! So sad. :(

你是我的眼

2008-05-29T23:36:00.002+08:00

第一次听到这首歌是在2007年底花莲实习时去count down的时后。印象很深刻是因为那时是冬天，包得厚厚的连手套也戴上了还觉得很冷, 一听到了这首歌时顿时温暖了起来。 :) 还有因为当天演唱的都是一些台湾蛮知名但我们没听过的歌手，所以我也没expect什么。当有一首那么动听的旋律播出时，让我觉得好好听，立刻就好喜欢, 就留下了深刻的印象。台湾朋友也解释说这首歌当时在台湾很流行，像以前无印良品的歌般。 hehe.

而当我一个人到了台北，在五份埔逛时又听到了这首歌。当时因为是一个人，所以觉得这首歌带有寂寞的味道，好希望快快回到有认识的人的地方，不想在一个人在溜达了啦！

不过那只是当下听到这首歌的感受。一个人去走走自有一番不同的感受，会很享受一个人在陌生地方的自由自在，一个人的无拘无束，一个人的负责任, 一个人的享受与自己相处，去认识本来的自己。好难得。

还记得曾在从2006年Thailand回途中, 在飞机上望着窗外的蓝天对自己promise说以后无论怎样都要有一个人背包旅行的勇气。

哈，哪天还真听我的话呢，让我实现了我的愿望。所以说，有梦想的人是很幸福的！：）

萧煌奇-你是我的眼

如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中牵住你的手
如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的都不一样
眼前的黑不是黑你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘忘了掀开
你是我的眼带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼让我看见这世界就在我眼前
就在我眼前

Cutting liver and lung

2008-05-28T17:52:00.002+08:00

完全没有心理准备就一个人跑去停尸房，都不懂要怎样换衣袍，只知道要快快赶上已在里面开工了的两位好友。(因为这个医生一定要学生帮忙动手做才肯签名，所以我一定要赶在他们没做完之前进去插一手。哈哈。) 换好衣服出去时又在停尸的地方兜来兜去找解剖房，脑海里想的是做戏常出现的认尸情节。那时还真佩服自己的勇气！

还好进到去时还没完。。他们在切着stomach and duodenum.

The patient had a perforated duodenal ulcer (1cm x 1cm) and he died of peritonitis with septicemia. The ulcer hole looks pretty benign to me. Apparently he had abdominal pain since yesterday morning and was seen and discharged in A&E Klang with some gastric medication. He could have been sent for an erect CXR which can possibly pick up the pencil-thin line of air under the diaphragm.

处理完重要的duodenum and stomach过后，轮到liver了。他示范如何用一把长长比切pizza的刀还要长一倍的刀，从刀根切起，把肝切成一片一片，像切面包那样。我在旁一面看一面在心里面想＇我要切我要切！＇就觉得要下手才好玩嘛。第一刀实在不容易，要老师（医生啦）调整手势才切到。第二第三及接下来的就很好玩了。好好切。hehe. 过后他让我们去切lungs,kidney之类的，都是横切，要用sponge顶在上面稳定organ。

The doctor is not as nasty as I thought - in fact he has been very nice and showed us a lot of things, like the heart, how to look for evidence of tricuspid regurgiation, vegeations etc. Luckily he is a patient and forgiving and understanding man - as we forgot a lot of the important anatomy stuff! hehe.

回到房后立刻把身体洗得干干净净，to wash away all the formalin and bloody smell.. and some psychological smell and dirt also.. can't help it. Now I smell good and fresh. :))

I remember your face but not your name...

2008-05-27T11:41:00.004+08:00

...because I'm a Right-brained person. ;-)

Just a quick test. Look at the dancer. Is it dancing from clock-wise or anti-clock wise? If clock-wise, *give me five*, we are the right brain person who uses more of our right brain. And the reverse.

*The website I took the picture from says most of the people see it anti-clockwise and you can try and focus to change the direction... I can't do it!!! I'm so right. hehe. ;-) I'm always right huh. hahaha. Gut feelings, imagination, appreciation, fantasy...

LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses logic
detail oriented
facts rule
words and language
present and past
math and science
can comprehend
knowing
acknowledges
order/pattern perception
knows object name
reality based
forms strategies
practical
safe

RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses feeling
"big picture" oriented
imagination rules
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can "get it" (i.e. meaning)
believes
appreciates
spatial perception
knows object function
fantasy based
presents possibilities
impetuous
risk taking

Left and right brainees learn differently. Here's a good comparison. Give me a big picture prof! ;-)
http://www.mtsu.edu/%7Estudskl/hd/LRBrain.html

我也有!!

2008-05-26T20:42:00.003+08:00

Hehe! Mine is a poultry shed. Later I can have chicken chop to eat when I chop off the chicken. hahaha!

Got it free from buying the Cadbury Zip chocolate bar. Honestly I don't like how the chocolate bar sticks to the wrapper because the bar is tightly packed so very hard to pull out the wrapper.. ended up messy... yucks!

And chocolates nowadays are giving me headache instead of sneezes... weird. Chocolates are forever not ngam with me. haiyo. I want to like you so much but you're giving me so much of trouble!!! Yet I like how you bring up my mood whenever I'm down.. It's like a love-hate relationship. ;-)

我不再ignore别人了啦!

2008-05-26T19:34:00.002+08:00

很多时候都是自己体验过才懂得。被人iganore的感觉实在不好受。 :(

那天看到朋友的MSN liner 说 'Imitation is the best form of flattery'... 现在很想说 'disregard is the best form of belittling '! To be belittled is certainly not a nice feeling.

写意生活! :)

2008-05-26T17:40:00.005+08:00

太爽了！！！我觉得我快被宠坏了啦!

好难得能过一些轻松没压力的日子. 实在无从挑剔! Besides doing some boring editing work for my group project, I have no other complaints whatsoever. 除了要出差的那几天，我都可以睡到自然醒。好幸福喔！每天就是看看书，看看戏，多数时间都上网找平时没时间理会的事情. 而最近的Internet connection都很听话, 挥之则来挥之则去!

还有就是有时间跟姐妹聊个痛快. 这些都是平时上课无法做到的奢侈享受. 好象平时很残那样。。。不过就是很忙啊平时，哪有这么多时间像现在来消磨。。。。真的要好好珍惜这段超级宇宙无敌天南地北难得的时光。

最近看着＇舞动全城＇，又挑起了我的跳舞瘾。我觉得香港剧, 比起一些有的没的的台湾偶像剧, 都很有主题，很有目的。这套应该是拍来应奥运会吧。因为里面有提到说这次奥运会第一次有国际标准舞，还 further elaborate 说尽管如此奖牌不会被算进去排名之类的咨询。这套戏我都是站着看，因为到他们跳舞时可以立刻跟着跳，又好玩又可以瘦身。哈哈！

Shop till I dropped!

2008-05-24T00:02:00.004+08:00

Dropped? I dunno what has dropped but I definitely enjoyed my shopping today. Not that I bought the world (hehe) - I think I just bought just about what I needed and wanted at the same time! ;-)

It's hard to explain a girl's mentality towards shopping but I would rate this time of shopping as perfectly satisfying. Thanks JJ for accompanying me. She's an angel, never comment on my shopping. haha.

For the zillionth time I bought a pillow. Hopefully this time will work out for me. *fingers and toes crossed* ;-)

For the second time I 'joined' the crazy Body Shop sales. This time not as crazy as two years back where I was literally stuck in the human traffic jam inside the tiny Mid Valley's body shop shop. This time, less varieties I would admit. But I wasn't affected much - I'm just aiming to replace my long finished shower gel. I really missed them during the past few weeks. I felt like I'm not treating myself good enough. And yummy yummy... I just tried the satsuma shower foam just now - it's so heavenly fresh and smells like oranges just plucked from the trees (not that I smelled before) haha... :)

And for the first time, I shopped till the guard in front of Jusco prevented me from going in coz dia kata 'kita dah nak tutup'. funny har... 3 minutes to 11pm only ma...

PS: I have decided against posting any photos of my 战利品.. I don't want turn you into green eye monster. hehe... 我要瘦身!!!

I feel so disturbed...

2008-05-21T18:50:00.007+08:00

<<<*nudge* Ruby dog, listen up!

Stop running away from the house without permission (not that we'll give you permission anyway)... or else you might end up like the stray dogs caught by DBKL.

I'm ever so heartache and nearly cried for the dogs, which were killed in less than 3 seconds by the DBKL pest control team. I wasn't there, but I saw the video, which is enough to touch my heart.

And some of the dogs in the videos are very active and look so lovable. Even got one hush puppy like dog.

According to my group members who went to the kandang to see it with their own eyes, they inject a poision straight into the heart of the dog and in few seconds the dog drops dead. And other on-looking dogs will sing like choir for their own friend who is pretty much innocent.

~~(will upload video and photos later - stay tunned!)~~
Opps.. those videos are supposed to be private and confidential.

Yeah it definitely sounds inhumane, killing those innocent dog this way. But from the viewpoint of DBKL, with the number (yet to get the number) of stray dogs caught (due to public complaint), they can't keep on increasing the dogs kept in the kandang.

They select some of the better breeds and put them in the PSCA to wait for people to come and adopt. I guess this is what we call forced 'natural selection' - 适者生存.

May all livings be well and happy... while they're alive! :)

Threading记

2008-05-19T20:37:00.004+08:00

今天去 Brickfield temple 参与卫塞节庆典过后, 刚好走着印度街, 我的同伴建议去做 threading. It was scary at first because the beauty palore is located in 3rd floor inside a poorly-litted building.. And we don't know whether the beauty palore is trustable or not or we'll end up in a very yellow place like JJ says. haha..

痛死我了! 我以后再也不要去做threading了!! 而且我不会选, 随便叫她做 thin 的.. 真的很细啦! 有点吓到. 不过哪个印度 beautician 说一个月过后等长多一点我再回去, 她可以帮我做 thick的. hehe.. But actually thin one makes me brow looks darker and fuller coz my brow itself very sparse. And the advantage of threading is that it lasts longer - about 3 weeks. It's only RM5 anyway, cheaper than what I used to pay for in salon.

原本说要做埋upper lips的but因为太痛怕真的喊出来吓坏顾客所以临时跟她说不要了.. 好好笑! :))

The girl really has good skills. I can't make out how they manipulate the thread because the dexterity and coordination are so refined and seamless. All I knew was my eyes are filled with tears of pain..

Why become a doctor?

2008-05-18T15:27:00.003+08:00

Even till this point, I'm still searching - searching for the answers that can tame my heart, which's always asking why - why take the trouble to go through all these late nights and endless mugging just to become a doctor?

And today on a hot afternoon, I went to google straight for 'why become a doctor' and this particular article really touched my heart.

Learning to become a doctor

A third-year medical student reflects on a life-changing emotional experience

Dreams and reality are often very different things. As a medical student I imagined myself one day taking on the role of a gallant knight, a protector and safekeeper of the sacred flame of life, creating miracles and wonderfully healing the sick. I wanted to make a difference and save lives. A road accident during the summer holidays gave me a chance to live my dream - but it was very different from what I had imagined. This piece reflects on my experience, and on how a brush with real medicine has changed me as a third-year medical student at Monash University.

The smashed machine was the first sight I encountered. A once fast, shiny road-bike now lay on the ground, a metal carcass. I remember running towards it, scared. Next to it a body lay still.

I had seen dead bodies before; cadavers allow us to release anatomical knowledge with the stroke of a blade; they are the ultimate learning tools. But what confronted me was no practical class - this was very real. I looked at the woman lying there. She was young, about my own age of 20, still with P-plates on her bike. It could have been one of my friends lying there. She was dressed up, perhaps coming home from a club somewhere, with makeup and nail polish delicately applied - real human qualities that gave a glimpse into a life that, only minutes earlier, was full. Draped over the top of a young human was viciously snapped; blood and vomitus overflowed from her throat onto her chest; her arm was destroyed. I knelt down beside her.

It was as if I was looking through her. I looked into her eyes but, quite simply, no one was there. Despite the horror of the scene, she looked almost peaceful. Was she just unconscious? Could there be a flicker of life still inside her? Was this my chance to save a life, to make a difference? What happened next was bizarre. I became machine-like, visualising a giant first-aid flowchart in my mind's eye, and began to apply my medical knowledge. Yet again the theory did not match the reality. My only previous attempt at resuscitation had been on a mannequin with a plastic torso and head. This woman had real lungs and a real heart. I turned her on her side and tried to unblock her airway; I had no gloves. Using a mouth-to-mouth protective device that I carry on my keyring, i tried to shield my hands as I attempted to scoop blood and vomitus out of her mouth. I then tried to give her air: "5 breaths in 10 seconds, and watch the chest rise", my training had taught me. But her chest did not rise. AT first I got angry and blamed it on the device I was using, but then I realised her entire airway was obstructed. I searched for a carotid and radial pulse but found neither - the beat of life had stopped. I tried cardiopulmonary resuscitation but she wasn't responding - it wasn't supposed to be like this. Yet I continued until I felt a gentle tap on my left shoulder. It was one of the ambulance officers - I had missed their dramatic arrival, hearing my own thoughts and deaf to everything else. Never before had my mind been so clear or sharp. My adrenalin level was so high that it took tactile stimulation to reawaken me to my surroundings - a feeling I still never forget.

Despite efforts by the ambulance officers, the girl was pronounced dead at the scene.

It was in the day that followed, spending time with my general practitioner, that I began to learn a little about what being a doctor really means. I came to him upset that someone had died, upset at how horrific it was, upset that I had failed, upset that I had done something that may have exposed me to to HIV, hepatitis B or hepatitis C infection, even upset that the damn thing was upsetting me! He sat and listened. Being able to speak to someone who had witnessed similar trauma was amazingly comforting. He told me that the three hardest things to cope with in medicine are death itself, the death of someone young, and the death of someone under your care. I had copped all three "right between the eyes", at a time when I hadn't the experience or the training to know how to respond or feel.

My GP had no magic pills or portions to rid me of the churning inside me. Nor did he need them - all I wanted was for him to understand what I was feeling. I was given an insight into what caring for someone really means. He reassured me that people don't expect doctors to be miracle workers - all a family really wants in this type of situation is for a doctor to "be there and to care". My GP suggested that I attend the funeral service if I felt comfortable doing so. He believed it would give me a sense of closure and that it would help me to be around others with similar feelings. I sat with him in his office after all his patients had gone home, looking through the newspapers for the funeral details.

I sat through the service and listened to the account of a life I knew nothing about. I looked around at the web of friends and family she had interwoven. I was now a part of that web - she had touched me too. At the conclusion I introduced myself to her father, and told him that his daughter did not die alone, that I was there caring for her. I told him that the last few days had taught me more about caring for people, and about being a doctor, than I had learned in all my days at medical school. I told him that I was there for him and his family. With that, the tall, lanky man hugged me tightly, crying and thanking me for being there, for stopping and bothering to care. It was devastatingly sad, yet enormously relieving, and I was proud. He wanted to care for me and to share his feelings with me, something I had not expected. The simple knowledge that their daughter did not die alone was comforting to the family. They knew that if there had been a chance for her, I was there to give her that chance.

I am starting to understand what being a doctor is about. To really care for someone connects people in such a wonderful way that it can even make death seem a little less scary. Sometimes just being there can make all the difference.

Ryan J Hodges
Third-year medical student
Monash University, Melbourne, VIC

Hodges, R. (2000). Learning to become a doctor, Medical Journal of Australia, 173: 158-159.

Zi Sian vs Zi Qian

2008-05-17T23:37:00.003+08:00

The story began few weeks ago when I got this new contact in MSN named 'zi qian' that I thought was one of my old schoolmates named Zi Sian.

Yeah these are two different names but the blur me thought could it be Zi Xian wanted her online presence to be known as zi qian le... or somehow she mistyped it... and there I went chatting with this 'zi qian' like I were to my old friend 'zi xian' happily... making all those girlish comments and jokes!!!

And today, a 30 minute conversation came into a sudden turn...
....
zi qian: "but anyway my home is near um"
zi qian: "it's also near to me high school, CHS"
me (blurred... since when she moved to another school half way): "you went to amc before right?"
zi qian: "what is amc?"
me (omg!): "har? sorry to ask but how do I know you ah?"
....

No wonder la... all this while I was thinking... how come the zi xian I knew changed to like a very factual person, a very 'male' energy I sensed.. and deep down in my heart I actually thought she has changed, somehow due to her job or whatever it is.

The zi sian I knew was pretty much a soft-spoken girl but with a very determined heart, just like many other girls from all-girl school that I knew. hehe. And she shares a very special bond with me because we were born on the same day! :)

At this point of time, I actually wonder what the real zi sian is doing.. how she's doing and whether she'll laugh at this funny incident. hehe.